So, its been a while since ive updated. I actually forgot i had this stupid livejournal thing! haha. anywho lifes been interesting. Been working full time....and taking a class at OCC. Spending most of my free time with mister Jonathon. Our 2 yr anniversary is coming up....yes i know its been 2 years!!

im having another ultrasound on my pelvic area ( Read more... )

i guess i just really wanted to stay with you tonight and get freaky and cuddle and all that good stuff

i was really bummed...and kinda hurt that you wanted to play D&D rather than be with me.....

i told you that i wanted to do all that yesterday so dont say you didnt know

you can play that game whenever, but when do we both have a night to ourselves ( Read more... )

i know ive got some trust issues ; ive had alot of the people that i really
needed in my life walk out on me. but thats really not the worst thing. No, the worst thing
was when some people that pretended that they were faithful to me & ripped out my heart.
for awhile i went on not knowing whose going to leave or whose going to stay. and no one
( Read more... )

Im going to the doctors today. getting a pap smear done. Hopefully nothings wrong with me. I did stop bleeding so i think the birth control is helping.

works going good. started full time last week and im only taking one class during the summer. gonna try and make some money so i can pay off some bills

In aug. jon and i will be dating for 2 years! ( Read more... )

my hormones are all fucked up....and even tho i know thats what it is i still cant help but cry ..i keep thinking these stupid thoughts

plus im in so much pain....physically...some these stupid cramps..

and im bleeding so much that i cant really do anything...

im so miserable...ive been crying so much cuz i feel so terrible....

wish they would of ( Read more... )

I dont think i can afford college, even with loans because they dont offer me enough money..so im pretty stressed about the money situation plus I have alot of credit card debt cuz i had trouble with money when i got outta high school.....

and i might have cancer....or something...and im pretty worried...

maybe im being a little drama queenish or a ( Read more... )

I love you

so much

just thought you should know. 

 i dunno, sometimes im just not sure

im not sure if we'll make it. if we will get married and live happily ever after. sometimes i hate him, he can be such a butthole. i mean would it really kill him to agree with me sometimes?? i mean just for the sake of agreeing!!

maybe he doesnt realize that every time he fights with me about something stupid i ( Read more... )

 i had the worst dream last night about jon.

he was having a party at his apartment...or a get together rather...granted it was a different apartment. I was there, a few of his buddies....some of his buddies brought girls, who brought other girls. lol so there were sorta of alot of people there...

jon was acting strange. wasnt really talking to me ( Read more... )

well hello everyone out there in livejournal world!! lol its been a while since ive updated so...here ya gooooo. i got a new job. been there for about a month now, and i love it. Im an accounting clerk, and its alot better than Michaels. I got my own desk, own computer, own phone extension! its great! haha. I feel important and they tell you when ( Read more... )