im listening to postal service right now thinking of brittany. today i didnt do much. i was working on her song though. i had to write a whole other one because i couldnt seem to come up with a cool melody for the old one. haha. oh well. this new one is turning out pretty cool. i really hate that im going on vacation now. im going to miss brittany ( Read more... )

Dear Brittany ( Read more... )

i was suicidal last night. had no pills. had no gun. im not about to cut myself again. that would have taken too long. i just wanted out. still kind of do. she cheated on me. after all the poems...all the "i love you"s ...after all the "youre my  everything"... now i just dont know what to think. why did this happen... why do i have to be so far ( Read more... )

Brittany you have the most calming voice ive ever heard. i love hearing your voice so much...its so cute just like you. you are beautiful inside and out and i sincerely mean that brittany. to me you are fucking perfect. i remember i hated talking on the phone.... but now i cant do without a night of talking to you and hearing your voice before i ( Read more... )

yep its like 5 37 ....but i woke up around 4 15 this morning... i know i was dreaming about something...i just cant remember what. i remember brittany was in my dream but i dono what we were doing. i always forget my dreams ( Read more... )

sabrina says everything i do is gay or cheesy and that she is only being honest. yesssss well im being honest right now... YOURE A FUCKING....no....i will be nice because she is britts friend! I LOVE YOU BRITTANY ( Read more... )

i was so scared again that i would lose her..
i thought i would never be able to tell her i loved her again. i wish i could help you britt. im sorry. i just wish you could find a better outlet for your stress than this. this isnt cool at all because if you die, i die. i just want to see you happy. we will see eachother someday. just dont lose sight ( Read more... )

brittany things are going to get better. i love you and you are the world to me you are my  everything. you will always be these things to me no matter what happens and i have no intention of us EVER fucking breaking up that would just be terrible. you just mean too much to me i just want to care for you all the time and make you smile i want to ( Read more... )

today sucked. first i was manic feeling the whole day followed by some deep sadness. it sucked...i hate my doctor hes stupid. i hate drugs too ... but what are ya gonna do .. they are all around. i take them everyday...but i guess its for a different purpose...but anyways i just need to be with brittany. thats all im feeling right now. a need to be ( Read more... )

brittany puts me in such a state of bliss. such a state of fucking ecstasy to say the godamn least. today was sooo great. brittany put me in such a good mood. she takes me out of my rut of sadness i constantly crawl into and call home and she puts me in a place id have to call my idea of what heaven has to be. she turns my world upside down and ( Read more... )