Im sitting here unable to sleep planning what my wedding could be like. I just need to loose weight so i can look like these size 2 models they shoved into the gorgeous gowns.

"you are young and life is long ( Read more... )

Look at this car wreck my life has become.

Alot on my mind. Ashley. Job and money. my daughter. my boyfriend. car. me. and tumors.

it's all fucked. fuck it all.

...fuck...

..it..

...all!

Im done. who needs to wanna die when youre already dying?

Brian and i are engaged:(ha)

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Brian is the greatest boyfriend eveerrrr!! We eat BBQ chicken pizza and choke on hot sauce.

I need to think of something really spectacular to do for him this weekend. hmm.. i need to get these idea lists flowing. ha. <3

I know it has been forever since i updated, seems like Myspace totally put Livejournal out of business. ha. Ive been trying to get a lot of school work in so i can pass, and ive been spending time with brian and when im not with him im with trinity or working. I now work at modells. its not too bad. i do well. Im trying to figure out life right now ( Read more... )

So I walk up on high
And I step to the edge
To see my world below.
And I laugh at myself
While the tears roll down.
'Cause it's the world I know.
It's the world I know.

" I can't turn away without knowing you'll be all right... That's all I want. "
" you're gonna die if you don't break free. Maybe not right away because you're strong but... Sooner or later that fire that I love about you... That fire's gonna burn out... "

"Always keep in mind that it only takes a split second to do something you¡¯ll regret for the rest of your life ( Read more... )

"In regards to
The usage of the drug...
It modified my personality
To the extent that I was
Highly irritable."
"I was like a crack Hitler."