yay done with one paper. now one more to go by wednesday, and life will be a breeze until finals ( Read more... )

yesterday was my parent's 25th anniversary. by today's standards, that is quite impressive. i am proud of and happy for them ( Read more... )

ladies and gentlemen, it has now been 6 years since i had a girlfriend. 6 years of being single.  4 years (2 years on the mission don't really count) of missed or blown opportunities, bad timing, misfortunes, misleadings, and mistakes. 6 years of being in love with a girl who doesn't love me, or waiting too long to make a move, or making a move ( Read more... )

as if Valentine's Day isn't irritating enough, I had to get sick this weekend. i made it through 8 hours of work and the drive home ok, but most of today I have felt like crap. i barely made it to church to see Daniel give his farewell talk, and the entire time felt completely miserable. not the way i wanted to spend a weekend at home. but at the ( Read more... )

today is a somewhat significant day to me. 6 months ago I came home. i got on a plane and said goodbye to the mission. i was so ready. so excited to come back to normal life. and it has been a good six months. maybe not exactly what i expected.  im not as good a student as i was planning to be (though i am better than freshman year). i am still ( Read more... )

so here is the facebook message jen, anita's best friend, sent me ( Read more... )

my greatest fear is that i will be single for the rest of my life. i still cannot find a way to calm that fear.

i want to ask, but at the same time, im not sure i  want to know

update time: since going clubbing, things with anita have gone well (until today, more on that in a moment). over the weekend we hung out with the usual BBB crew, which as usual consisted of watching people get drunk. sometimes it is entertaining, sometimes it is boring. this particular weekend, it was boring. i had more fun on the riding with ( Read more... )

so i suppose i should clarify something from my last post, though im finding it difficult to put my thoughts together in a logical order.  it does bother me some that she smokes pot. but not enough to turn me away right now. for one, i don't know how often she does it. and two, it might be something she's willing to change. if not, then that would ( Read more... )

ok so laugh all you want at this, but i did something last night i have never done before. i went to a club with anita and several other friends from work. it was fun...kinda. gabi and i waited in the 21 and over line, and got in relatively quickly, but anita and jen weren't able to make it in unless they payed $40 (normal admission is $10). so we ( Read more... )