oh wow. its been awhile.
hello LJ.

=)

i wanna lover i dont have to love.

god i fucking hate you.

GET OUT OF MY HEAD.

i was so stupid. to ever think that he loved me as much as he said. he fucked me over. he says that i did. but im not the one who hooked up with someone as soon as we broke up. the person that he swore was just a friend. the one that killed our relationship. so i would like to know how i fucked you over. go to hell. when they fuck ill be %100 over ( Read more... )

were done.
& i hope he fucks her so ill be over him sooner.

i hate that i cant let go.
even when i should.

amazing day.
made love..
which was amazing.

im in love. i cant help but love him.
even if the things he does hurt me.
i have to be with him.

i cant help but to make him my

everything.

i dont know. maybe im setting myself up for failure.

so i guess things are okay now.
i really dont know.
& im kind of to the point were im not making this everything.
because i did & look what it got me.

im so sick of being let down. im sick of feeling okay & happy about my relationship & then it all going down the drain. why do you make promises if your not even going to try to keep them? i hate crying at school. i hate breaking down in front of everyone & then you not even calling me. i hate you right now. i hope you know that.