sooo.... tonight im actually sober... and i have alchahol but i dont want to drink it... yay for wil power?... i need sleeping pills... i stayed up late n didnt wake up till like 5pm.. i reallllly need a job... so i can have money and stuff to do... and make some more friends ( Read more... )

"IF YOU GONNA GET WET WEAR A RAIN COAT"

last night i was wasted n it was rediculouse...

im talking to marcus on the fone... hes on house arrest... poor baby.

omg i want to die... i had the best nite friday... i still have butterflies and for this i should shooot myself... sooo lame... and tonite i went to a goth club n it sucked... and there was only one hot guy who said i was cute but it was buy time we where leaving... me n sean are haveing a huge argument/conversation online... and i got to talk to ( Read more... )

so today i am a little better then most cause... im not saying but anyways... so thats awesome ( Read more... )

ive been drinking alot more now that i cant smoke... i know if i could smoke i wouldnt care so much about everything and it would be awesome...

I LOVE YOU MARY-JANE

i mean it wasent stupid i just said stuff that i wanted to say but shouldnt be saying on livejournal... and it wasent just cause i was drunk at all.

uhm i was drunk and posted a stupid entry... ohhh god...

i cant sleep... and i wish i couldnt eat but thats not my way of copeing... infact over eating is my way of copeing... welcome to my major fat over load... im misserable all the time... and i have lost most of my friends but i know theese years wont mean much in the future if i get that far and thats all that matters... shannon doesnt give a shit ( Read more... )

im terribly sad... i hate pretending like i hate shannon... i dont but its easier to hate someone then miss them terribly... i have deffanetly cryed myself to sleep many of times cause i want our friendship back... but each time i gett bitter at the fact that we arent friends and say i hate her n fuck her... it just makes the option of us ever ( Read more... )