it feels good to be me today. sunshine and some wine couldnt make me smile more than today. i like looking into eyes and not seeing lies a lost lover who can stay lost get lost and is lost... im a lonely lover laughing in the dark... this is a downtime for life but i will not fall or falter. im gaining ground on the old and expecting the best time ( Read more... )

ok so im heading into the new year and i have ideas for the world. well atleast for myself. regain my self control which is already done. stop eating red meat and pork again. ive been slowly on this path. eat better in general. ive hardly been eating at all lately. spend more time doing whats right, i want to do things for people. i have my life ( Read more... )

my father passed away when i was 1. he was a good man from what ive been told. my mother never told me much. i know he was a loyal friend and he really liked pop culture movies and music. he was a beatles fan. apparently he had lots of friends. he was married twice one lady and my mother. i dont think he had any kids with the first lady atleast ( Read more... )

working on christmas is not so fun. i hate the holidays like i always have. i really want to meet a nice/not crazy girl to spend my time with. there is always some hangup. i want to avoid those. the new girl is great and i like hanging out with her i did for like 6 days in row. even when i was working and keeping busy. looks wise she is out of my ( Read more... )

respect the life. its been a good/wierd week so far i dont know what to say. somewhere along the way i lost the ability to read people. its not a big loss. my life is on edge thats for sure i hoping today something i want to happens, happens wish me luck cross your toes and all that. there is a girl i like and i cant tell what she thinks of me at ( Read more... )

alright alright all jokes aside im the king of this slide standing in my sand castle im the one they come to if they want to play. and im the one who says when you can stay. if you dont the fool takes a look inside. stay awhile and figure out your head love isnt gained in a two day wave its a life lesson learned over time through trials and ( Read more... )

"its not the air that you slide through its the wind that holds you back when you dont even know."

sleep tight just ignore the feelings you cant escape when you dont even know"

alot of craziness has happened to me in the past week. there is too much to say. i have a friend coming in to town to visit this weekend. ive also met someone locally who has completely changed how i thought about them. i have been honest with both of them. so that is cool. i hope one of them gives me that i dunno feeling the feeling that i cant ( Read more... )

(noun) lie, prevarication ( Read more... )

today i start over with an all new life. i let out all of my hate and anger for amber last night. it sucks knowing what the person you loved is capable of. she is nothing to me. people have said to me for a long time amber is a bad person and i fought againest my better judgement. im over her. im gonna make myself happy and do my own thing. im ( Read more... )