okay, so I was really bored this evening. (as I still am ( Read more... )

One week ( Read more... )

http://kevan.org/johari?name=pinkwatch

i keep getting in these moods lately where things just keep rushing though my head.
and it hurts after a while.

i don't know my scales.
shit.
i have a private lessson tomorrow at 9:30.
shit.
i can't believe it's been a week already.
i can't wait 'til i have a pianist, and jury is over.
i can't wait 'til next semester,
i can't wait 'til thanksgiving ( Read more... )

today's word is.. stress ( Read more... )

i actually feel productive.
like i can do homework.
and then feel good about it tonight.

tonight should be fun.

i haven't been to a show in a long time.
especially at the dukum upp.

i need to start learning to sleep.
it's not necessarily the fact that i stay up late.
i've always done that.
it's that i still get up early.
for no reason.
well.
crappy ( Read more... )

insane!

i like how my weeks are highs and lows.

i felt so sick yesterday.

then yesterday night became a little better.

i like hanging out with people.

who doesn't?

so I got back to my room last night at about 2ish, lets say, after hanging out with kids from ryle.
then i check my email and take a shower.
then at about 3-3:30ish alex walks in and she ( Read more... )

i think i'm having a panic attack.

i don't like this anymore.

there is so much i need to do.

and i'm so behind already.

because of my fucking academic advisor not telling me certain KEY THINGS to being a instrumental music major.

FUCK.

and my foot is really killing me today.

i think it's because of the weather.

i hope it's because of the weather.

i ( Read more... )

foam party...

enough said....

i'll lj it tomorrow.
i'm too tired.

no fun.

don't get me wrong.
college is great and all.
i just hate, HATE, being the lacky.
sidekick.
the 'other' one.
whatever you want to call it.

which is pretty much what i am.

no one ever comes to my room looking for me.
it's always, ALWAYS, people looking for alex.
thanks guys.
thanks.

i wish i could make friends outside of classes. 
to like hang out with.
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