well feeling better than yesterday...still thoroughly confused and gosh i just dont know...there is so much on my mind lately- like wehre am i going to work for the summer, what im gonna do for next year for school, where to go to college, and so on and so forth...i know most of this is far away but its always getting closer and closer. i try to ( Read more... )

ah, i just don't know what to do right now...i really am confused...don't you hate it when u think u have everything u want and then wonder if it was really as great as you thought it would be once you got it...What ever happen to live being easy? I really don't like worrying over things but right now i just don't know what IS right anymore...i ( Read more... )

wellll it looks like i'm not going to sunfest :(- bummer... but yeah this weekend was way fun... ah i don't really feel like writing- later gator or something gay like that lol

if things don't go my way i'm going to cry lol i wanted to go to sunfest but the madre is saying no...any advice to help?

BLAH LIFE'S GAY!

Well anyways...after about five thousand hours spent in a car with a father snoring and a mother screaming every 5 minutes about how beautiful the flowers are and how much she hates her hair i have finally made it to the destination of Indiana...We are staying in a villa that is out in the middle of nowhere...seriously when i say out in the middle ( Read more... )

THIS IS STILL SO INCREDIBLE HARD...EVERYTIME I SEE HIM I JUST WANNA BE WITH HIM...I JUST DON'T WANT TO GET HURT~ YOU CAN PROMISE ALL YOU WANT BUT IT DOES NO GOOD UNLESS YOU CAN SHOW IT... I JUST WANNA MAKE SURE MY HEART DOESN'T GET BROKEN AGAIN AND THAT WE BOTH WANT THE SAME THING...GOD, I DO REALLY LOVE HIM~ WHY CAN'T THINGS JUST BE EASY AND ( Read more... )

Well things are looking more positive which is good... i still hurt but i'm starting to feel happy again. I just keep having to remind myself that life will go on no matter what has happened and you just have to roll with the punches it throws at you. I mean what good does it really do to mope around feeling sorry for yourself? EVERYTHING HAPPENS ( Read more... )

Well its been awhile since i've last written and what not and i wish that i had something good to put but right now life is just going fast downhill...don't you just hate how fate always get's it's way in life- i only wish i could change it, that things could be always good and no one cries... i only feel powerless to the inevitable and it kills me ( Read more... )

SAME OLD SAME OLD...SCHOOL IS USUAL- CRAZY RULES AND CRAZY NEW RULES THAT WERE NEVER PREVIOUSLY STATED~GEEZ! ANYWAYS...DIDN'T GET TO SEE TREY AGAIN...I MISS NOT GETTING TO SEE HIM ALOT BUT STILL HOPING TO SEE HIM THIS WEEKEND... I'M SO TIRED OF SCHOOL OF EVERYTHING BUT YEAH WHAT'S NEW ABOUT THAT. EVERYTHING IS JUST SO MUCH THE SAME AND IM SICK OF ( Read more... )