I've officially turned into the neurotic Bridezilla I feared I'd become. 3 months and 26 days to the wedding and I'm a mess. I'm fine with he and I, I don't have a single doubt or fear in the world about us. When it comes to everything being ready in time for the wedding, I'm starting to panic. Come on lets face it a little under 4 months is ( Read more... )

This majorly blows. I hate dealing with idiots. Last Thursday I took a different way home from work because I was going to go to the bank. Go figure a guy on a flippin bicycle hits me. He came flying off the sidewalk and slammed into the side of my car, got up and said, "You did this, you're going to pay for it." Wonderful, just what I need, Some ( Read more... )

Fuck it, for my 21st birthday we're going to do it right. Get the hell out of here. Get my mind off of how depressed I'm going to be. It's going to be tough to have my husband in Afghanastan for our first Valentines Day.

So it's been a long time since I've been around and trust me a hell of a lot has happened since then, but mainly my love life. I'm getting married December 19th, 2005. Who would have ever thought. Definitely not me, but when it's right you just know. It's just that feeling in your heart and your gut. It's hard to explain and if you haven't been ( Read more... )

I had a lot of fun tonight... for the first time in a long time. I just went out and had a good time. Went to a latin club in MIA and just danced and relaxed. I love to dance and it always get a lot of stress off of my back. It was really small scale, not even close to a hundred people, but it was a hell of a lot of fun. Just what the doctor ( Read more... )

Why is it that there can be people there, yet you can still feel completely alone? How can you be happy, yet still feel so damn depressed? How can you be doing something that always lifts your spirits, yet you're still miserable? Why does nothing help, when all you want is for this feeling to go away? How can everything you want in your life be ( Read more... )

This friggin sucks!!! Why am I so miserable and stressed? I'm still soo sick of being pressured about all this stupid shit. I'm not safe from it around anyone... friends, family, people at work. Why can't I just live my own damn life? So it may not be perfect and I may not know what I want out of it... but it is my life. MINE. No one elses. Errrr ( Read more... )

I should be happy... right? Well I'm not, not even close. I should be perfectly fine, but I'm so stressed out I'm giving myself a headache. I'm not even hungry I'm so stressed and I'm usually always hungry. Everyones pushing me to do this, pushing me to do that. I need to move out by this time, I need to date this person, I need to start college ( Read more... )

Damnit, I want to go back. No drama, laid-back, no stupid pricks. I just want to be relaxing again. Back on the beach, snorkeling, laying in the sand at night looking at the stars, with people who don't give a damn if I'm not perfect. I want out of this hell hole. I just want to be fucking happy.. is that really too much to ask? It seems like it ( Read more... )

The second trip to Orlando and the Story of the Year concert was so much fucking fun. I woke up at 9 and did my hair because I was bored and had time to kill. It took me forever to finally find a tattoo place that was open that could put the beads in my earrings, because it was just pissing me off and I wasn't getting anywhere. So at 10:30 I left ( Read more... )