year in review ( Read more... )

why is it that men can go days without speaking to someone they love? and also, why can't women do the same?

bronchitis.
london in november?
babysat last night.
no life.
no job.
fat.

um. yeah.

i just...give up.

walking, thinking, breathing
the only sound is the crunch of leaves
beneath my feet.

my heart beating faster as i
go deeper into the woods
no way out

panic
shaking
loss of breath

am i in the woods
or alone in my room
feeling

lost
confused
alone

no one to help
no one can hear my
screams

no one to lend a hand
no one to stop the
pain.

it's been a while. i should be updating from London but well... my visa isn't here yet. hopefully tomorrow or early friday but i doubt it. i need to call the visa place. i haven't done anything but read, sleep, shop, and watch tv. i'm making progress on the bible and i've read four or five other books. i'm also working on crafties, two cross stitch ( Read more... )

graduation is two weeks from tomorrow. this is only a mildly scary fact. moving to London about two weeks after that. i'm excited about it. nothing has been going on. i was put on anti-depressants. woho. *sarcasm*

london was great. now i'm back and life is back to normal. i still feel like i'm the only one in my relationship sometimes and i guess thats how lifes supposed to be but it blows donkey cock and i'm tired of feeling this way ( Read more... )

in london. was supposed to meet up with some of liams friends today but missed them. the science museum was awesome. also had a most delicious lunch at a tiny italian restaurnt in kensington. meeting the rest of his family tomorrow. besides jet lag, back pain, and pms it's been great so far. ;-) amazing actually.