my bones were broken. my heart was crushed. my consciousness was left neatly folded in the closet.

I survived something close to death.

and today i feel good about being around and alive, and having survived.

I think this lj may make a comeback.

( a night in pictures )

Good Christ when is the last time I wrote anything on here ( Read more... )

i just started to tear up ( Read more... )

hey.

i'm drunk.

fuck man ( Read more... )

i never thought that people could loose their light, that glow that initially draws you toward them. i guess thats whats been holding me back is seeing peoples potential rather that taking them for what they are.

ive learned a lot lately.

i think i need to make the best out of what i have, and im going to.

a very drunken eric called me tonight very upset. he apologized for a lot of shit, told me that he was sorry for cheating on me that he was just in a really fucked up place in his life then. told me that i if we had been dating any other time, that we'd probably still be together. that i was one of the greatest boy friends he had ever had, yet he ( Read more... )

today was really rough, its 1:30 in the am and im still not sleeping, i need to be up at 4am to go back to work ( Read more... )

eim laying alone in bed, the lights are dim, there are dozens of explosions in the distance. im alone. im sad. i feel dead, more than dead, less than alive, in limbo. what the fuck am i doing, who am i? why cant i just be myself? fuck ( Read more... )