i wish i wasn't so dependent on boys to make me happy.

because right now, i'm miserable.

and i miss him.

Cheating takes its toll on relationships. Bart and i have been having a really difficult time ever since he kissed that other girl. We keep fighting over stupid shit, and i feel like i've lost a lot of my feelings for him. I'm not going to lie, before he cheated on me, i was in love with him. He kind of shattered that. I can't love someone i don't ( Read more... )

i hate birthdays. they are completley overrated, and usually end up terrible ( Read more... )

ultimate practice last night was amazing, i really am starting to love that game. I think the only problem that i had before was lack of encouragement. But now with Bart and Amy.. they're making me feel more confident, and therefore i enjoy playing more. I think i'm playing better too. :) so yay! After ultimate i ran into bart on the way to the ( Read more... )

it's monday night, and i'm killing sometime before ultimate practice, so i figured i'd spill about my wonderful weekend. Friday I went ice skating with Michelle and Shayna. It was really cute, and i definitley think that the ice skating rink is by far the coolest thing Wooster has done. Friday night I went and played indoor ultimate in Cleveland. I ( Read more... )

Last night was initiation night. I officially hate pledging. I think it's all such bullshit, and no one should ever have to do all that shit just to become a part of a social group. Sororities are actually kind of shit. I mean, sometimes i enjoy being in one.. but basically i just think pledging is completely unnecessary and retarded. I personally ( Read more... )

when looking back on last semester, i remember it all dark and depressing. i think that is because i had a hard time adjusting from freshman year. things were so different. my classes were horrible and my love life was also kind of depressing last semester. just nothing really seemed to be going my way. i had higher hopes for this semester, and so ( Read more... )

last night i had a dream that bart came to visit me, and everything was going wonderfully.. until he fucked my mom. yeah. fucked up huh? i know my mom would never do that. but the sad thing is, he probably would. and i don't like the fact that he probably would. i'm like in the worst mood ever, and it's beautiful outside because it's snowing. ( Read more... )

wow, i haven't updated this thing in forever, but i really do want to write more often. so i'm going to make an effort. it's so much easier than writing it down at least. anyways, so today was pretty eventful. mom woke me up early and we met ava at the cheesecake factory for brunch. she brought her two cute kids, bella and sean. i can't believe she ( Read more... )

i had the weirdest dream last night. I normally do not remember my dreams with such vivid detail, but last night i did. Here's what happened ( Read more... )