well its been over a year maybe more that ive been on here. Tonight I started thinking of the past that still today is hard to put aside, this Journal was first made when alesha and I were together.So i came to read the past and i guess it wasnt a good thing in away only to be upset. I still miss her to death but its over for us, all i can do is ( Read more... )

It's been weeks now and Im lonley as ever,I went to kevin's wedding last week and it was good, what made me upset was watching alesha come down that aisle to the front is that pretty dress just thinking I just should be up there. she was stunning I just wanted to cry but that would probaly make me look funny so i didnt want to spoil it.Days go on ( Read more... )

well i just got home and now im out the door again,just wanted to say that alesha is awsome at everything!! and i love her to death <3.well i better get going and ill finsish this tommrrow. later people, i mean alesha lol. muah xox

Im lonely and I know its my fault, that I am.Days go by now in misery and im not myself. People talk to me and I act like Im not there. I cant stop thinking about what ive threw away.The tears never stop from my baggy eye lids. Alot of this has to do with not enough sleep, Ive noticed that and its ruining everything, and im glad i only have another ( Read more... )

I go into home depot tonite to say im sorry to my ex of what has happened,I go in there and shes busy fair enough so i left and waited in the parking lot for her, since shes gettin off at 5pm. Next thing i know i watch the LP guy starin at me and 10 mins later i have 3 cops pull into the parking lot, so im like something doesnt feel right.so as i ( Read more... )

Well these past couple of days Ive been really excited for many reasons. Yes its all having to do with ally mostly : ) well this past weekend was fun, part from the stupid party students at the apartments. It was alot of fun hanging out with ette and eating at cali pizza and goin to the movies. workin out at the gym wit ette and waiting for ally ( Read more... )

As Im driving up oslo road about 5:30pm Im staring out into the cattle fields and the sky thinking about how my feelings have changed. Just thinking about ally how everything I do with or without her, the way I feel has changed, its way better than before I have relized I dont know what I would do without her.I truely think we are meant to be. we ( Read more... )

I had a fun past couple days, I know I didnt get to stay over the other day for the night i still had fun and it was well worth it. Yesterday was fun I enjoyed helping ally out with her move.I love being there for her and helping her out.I wish I could stay up there all the time, but thats gonna be a while,I just cant wait for that time to come and ( Read more... )

I had dinner with ally and her family tonight and then birdy came over. I dont know what it is but i feel fitted in with her family. I really enjoy hanging out with her parents.Ive never had the oportunity to do this with anyone else, and im glad its a first. We are perfect together and iy cant get any better, well i cant wait to marry her heheh ( Read more... )

Well this will be a fast entry before I go to work.I had a lot of fun this week with my wonderful girlfriend. She amazes me in every way.I love spending time with her every minute.I spent 6 full days with her and i loved it and i would do it again. Went to bush gardens and hung out with ette. This cant get any better hehe : ). Alesha your the best ( Read more... )