It's hard to know where to start when I've traveled through so many worlds in such a short time. A quick synopsis ( Read more... )

Hello old friend. Wow. I haven't been to Livejournal in nearly two years. I've moved homes and changed jobs since then, have started and stopped school, have entered into and exited out of an amazing, challenging, rewarding relationship, have grown and spiraled upward in so many ways. At just this moment I'm finding myself entering into a bit ( Read more... )

It occurred to me tonight that perhaps I am a healer ( Read more... )

I have a big, fat crush on a lesser-lesser-lesser-known celebrity. I have a crush on a boy who did kung-fu in a bad horror sequel, on a boy who's made a guest appearance on Saved By the Bell. I have a crush on a boy who lives an hour away, but whose absence I can ease by watching his bad, bad movies in the comfort of my home. You better believe ( Read more... )

i thought that my sex drive had just died down. i realize tonight, while he is in Minnesota eating mock eclairs from his mother's oven, that my body has simply tired of him. the emotional drain dries me out when i'm around him. but six hours after his plane's taken off, i want to dress in a skirt and heels and find myself a good strangerfuck ( Read more... )

( If I could be anywhere right now, I'd still be here. )

I can feel myself waking up. I feel energy seeping back in, what feels like dried and dormant cells in my body filling with liquid and re-animating. My body has become sensitive again, my desire is returning ( Read more... )

Going to ignore the to-do list for at least another week and get on a plane to Florida tonight. I will be sitting in a hammock on the deck of a ratty wooden boat for the next six days. That should be time enough to clear my head.

Goodbye work, goodbye apartment, goodbye Misha, goodbye cloudy Seattle.

I need this.

To do list:

1. Break up with boyfriend
2. Move into own apartment
3. Quit job
4. Go back to school

1. Thanks to all of you who sent me such thoughtful responses to my last post. You amaze me with your sensitivity, perspective, and resourcefulness ( Read more... )