This is gonna sound bad but.... So my step- grandfather has cancer and was living with us for a while during his first treatment session. It's been 2 months since chemo and radiation were finished and now it's back and worst than last time. So now he's gonna live with us again, which means I won't have a place to study and the house will be quiet ( Read more... )

I feel quite old tonight. Looking at my long slender fingers in the moonlight, it's funny they never look like this in the day. How is it that night can transform things with just the moonlight? How it can unveil things in the mind that never dare cross it in the day? I always dreamed of having the perfect life by this age... I'm almost 28. I feel ( Read more... )

Something feels off. I don't know what it is! Every time I get this feeling something bad happens... It's very unsettling. It makes me feel really unfocused, quiet, grumpy, like I need to be held. On some off chance I am picking up a future event some clarity would be nice ::looks at the sky:: because just a feeling of dread without a direction to ( Read more... )

What has happened to the girl who NEVER cries?..... ::sigh:: I have managed to make it through life to this point never crying in front of family. I'm the strong one... But to day a simple "what's wrong?" almost fucking reduced me to tears! What the HELL is happening to me?! I used to be able to pull off the whole nothing's wrong, I'm perfectly ( Read more... )

Hear that sweet calling
Almost like an angel
Just a whisper
In my ear

Hear that sweet calling
An angel in my ear
No longer whispering
But talking hushed in my ear

Hear that sweet calling
An angel in my ear
No longer hushed
But talking in my ear

Hear that sweet calling
An angel in my ear
No longer talking
But yelling in my ear

Hear that sweet calling
It's no angel ( Read more... )

Late night thoughts
Divert the mind from sleep
We play a thousand lifetimes
over in our heads
Ever changing
Always wondering

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How ever said knowledge is a good thing was obviously never facing a cervical biopsy.... Extremely terrified of the procedure...

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I HATE IT HERE!!!!!! I HATE IT HERE!!!!!! I HATE IT HERE!!!!!! I HATE IT HERE!!!!!! someone please find me a job that pays $15 plus an hour so I can move out of this fucking place!

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I know this is petty but I can't help buy be jealous of the people I know that are going on vacations to europe, that have their own places, and are living a free life away from their families. I feel so trapped and my step- mom's verbal abuse when she's had her ambien doesn't help!

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Sometimes I wonder what would have happened if I hadn't cast a true love spell 4 years ago. Would I be married? Still single? Just a random thought

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