Switchblade - 13
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"Was this your house?" Taemin asks as he follows Onew through one of the fenced in properties.
"Was it?" Onew glances back at Taemin, "I don't know exactly where I used to live, but I doubt this is it, or it would be painful to be here."
Taemin nods, looking down to his feet as they step up old wooden stairs. "This place won't have any heat, I guess."
"It's just not electric." Onew opens the door, kicking his shoes off next to it before stepping further inside. Taemin follows him, taking his shoes off and leaving them next to Onew's. He's pleasantly surprised to feel heat on the floor. Even now that he has vampire blood in his system, heat is always comforting.
"Onew," Taemin walks around a corner, finding the vampire already having a seat on a cushion in the middle of the floor, lighting a lantern.
Onew looks up at him, seemingly ignoring his serious tone. "Come have a seat."
There's three other cushions in the room, and Taemin chooses to sit down on the one nearest Onew. Before saying anything else, he takes a moment to look around. In the lantern's flickering flame, the room looks just as creepy as the rest of the town does.
"You've changed," Onew notes suddenly. "How old are you now?"
It's strange, but Taemin has to think about it before he answers, "I'm 18. You've changed too."
Onew nods, "Of course," then he looks thoughtful, "I don't have any food for you.."
"I brought food. I'll live."
"You're still doing terribly stupid things, aren't you? Do you drink vampire blood so that you can fight vampires or something like that? If there's anything surprising about you being here, it's that you're in one piece."
Taemin doesn't have the energy to glare at Onew, but he sounds annoyed enough. "If I didn't fight back against vampires, do you really think I would still be alive? You're wrong if you think that. You... because of you.."
"You're about to blame me for everything," Onew straightens up a bit, his voice also fully annoyed, "But you've just said it yourself. 'If I didn't fight back against vampires..' Think about where the world has gone. If it weren't for me, you probably would never have learned about fighting back. Knowing you, you'd be dead."
Taemin stares at him as if mortified by the words. They sting because of the truth in them, but in a hurry, a small voice in the back of his head speaks another truth, and he repeats the voice out loud to Onew; "If it weren't for you, I might have not died alone."
Taemin continues to speak, and Onew seems to shrink as he does, "If it weren't for you, Minho might have died with his family, Key might never have touched me, Hongki might never have died for me, I might never have killed Sungmin, I might never have tasted vampire blood,"
Onew was standing up, "Taemin.."
"My mom might still be alive! " Taemin takes a breath, and he didn't realize until that moment he was crying, but he ignores it all the same, unrelenting with his words, "I wish I was dead and that I had never met you, I wish even, that I could lock myself in a room and not care that there will be more and more people that have to go through what I've been through and worse."
Onew had sat down at his side and put one of his cold hands on Taemin's shoulder. Taemin pushes it away, moving a hand to his head. "I wish, Onew, that I never had to love someone who," he pauses for a sob, then takes a shaking breath before he can finish, "didn't even know my name...... but all of this, all of this is because of you.”
After a seemingly very long moment, Onew says, “I’m sorry.” and the words are so simple that they’re hilarious. Taemin laughs at them, shaking his head and speaking through tears, “I wish I could forgive you.”
“I’m trying..” Onew begins, and Taemin hurriedly cuts him off.
“You’re trying for Minho, aren’t you? Was I even anything more than an after thought to you? Was I ever anything more? Onew, wasn’t I just a stupid human?”
“If you were, you would be dead. You’re not--”
“Maybe that’s why I came here,” Taemin looks very carefully at Onew now, “You took everything but my life, so maybe I just want you to finish me off.”
“You’re being dramatic..”
“Dying can’t be worse than this. Onew, I really don’t have anything any more. Everybody is dead, it’s all.. all...”
Taemin’s words fade into thick sobs and he leans forward, grabbing onto Onew’s shoulders and hiding his face in his chest. He tries to speak a few more times, but with his face pressed into Onew’s shirt, his voice is just a muffled wail.
Soon, Onew speaks. Taemin feels his chin move on the top of his head when the deep voice tells him, "I know how you're feeling. Right now, we have each other."
"Who am I to you?" Taemin asks softly, "I'm nothing, no one.. a stupid..."
"You're not. Stop it." Onew's words are clipped, short and forceful. Taemin lifts his head to look at Onew's face, and Onew looks back at him. With vampire blood inside of him, Onew's fingers don't feel too cold when they touch the back of his neck. They're just there, somewhat rough, pressing into his skin - just there.
"I'm happy that you came, Taemin," Onew says after a silent moving, leaning in just a bit closer. Taemin's wet eyelashes feel especially heavy, so he lets his eyes fall closed as he moves his hands from Onew's shoulders, wrapping his arms around the vampire in a hug.
Onew hugs him back until their chests are against each other. Onew lowers his head to Taemin's shoulder, and Taemin can feel the vampire's mouth is wet on his neck. He wonders vaguely if Onew has ever killed anyone in such a position. He imagines losing his life like this, and thinks it doesn't seem bad at all. "It's okay if you bite me," Taemin whispers.
Onew's mouth moves against his neck, but Taemin doesn't feel teeth. Onew says, calmly, in a whisper of his own, "I'm not going to do that, whether or not you want me to."
Taemin argues with him, "You kill humans all the time. You must."
"You're special. Now why are we whispering?"
Taemin can't help a tiny laugh, and he can feel Onew smiling too. It makes the moment surreal. More like a dream. Despair lurks around Taemin's mind, threatening to take his smile away, until Taemin wraps himself more fully around Onew. Let me have one moment to forget about everything.
When agony threatens him still and new tears spill over his eyes, finally Taemin voices his protest, "I don't want to think," he says softly and lifts his head. Onew pulls back to look at him questioningly, and Taemin does just what he asked himself to do. He acts entirely without thinking, tangling fingers in Onew's hair and pulling the vampire forward until their lips meet.
Taemin never kissed a person before, not like this, not even close. It feels oddly natural right now, like something he's done a million times before, and it's incredibly easy to do. He keeps fists in Onew's hair and opens his mouth against the vampire's, knowing that their lips should be wetter, knowing that he'll taste the vampire better if he gets inside of his mouth.
Onew moves more slowly, still against Taemin for a moment before his lips move in a slow kiss. Finally, he drops his jaw and Taemin readily pushes his tongue between soft lips. The vampire's mouth isn't warm, and Taemin is almost disappointed, but suddenly Onew moves his tongue against his. It hits some kind of nerve that sends all thought flying away again.
The kiss tastes like blood. Taemin can recognize the flavor of human blood well enough now. It's strong especially on Onew's teeth, which Taemin licks over as if trying to find a sharp one.
Onew pushes him back after a moment, one hand on Taemin's shoulder and the other still at the back of his neck. Onew looks at him closely, as if trying to see through a mask. Taemin looks back sheepishly, heat rising as he realizes exactly what he's done and that he has no idea what to say about it. Eventually, Onew starts to open his mouth, the slightest hint that something's going to be said. Taemin practically jumps on him, covering the vampire's mouth in another kiss.
I don't want to think..
Within their second kiss, Taemin pushes Onew to the floor. Slowly, and he imagines their kiss has lasted for a long time now, the vampire begins to heat up underneath him. His fists have released Onew's hair, feeling their way clumsily down the vampire's body. This part doesn't feel as natural. Just as he begins to think about it, however, Onew's hands are on him. They've unzipped his coat and pushed their way inside, first moving up Taemin's shirt and then lowering their way through the waistband of his pants. His fingers seem caught there, and Taemin rolls partially over to unfasten his pants.
Onew rolls with him, the two lying side by side after a just broken kiss, staring into each other's eyes as though they were lovers. Love isn't what Taemin is thinking about, however. The only thing he's thinking of is how exactly sex with a man is going to work.
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NOTE!! I made some corrections thanks to sansparapluie!!! thanks so much *_*
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