There have been some things that I haven't told people. Things in this past year that, were they to come out (they won't) people will start to wonder about me. How  terrible has this year in Arcata been for me? Pretty tragic ( Read more... )

Reply to this meme by yelling "Words!" and I will give you five words that remind me of you. Then post them in your LJ and explain what they mean to you.

( Murphy's magic 5 about me... )

So here it is.

I've been trying so hard to not write a new blog until I had some good news. I was tired of these things being so sad all the time.

I don't know how to exactly describe how I'm feeling. Under appreciated, maybe? I feel like no matter what I do I can't make people proud of me. It's always that joke "don't worry, I still love you." ( Read more... )

1. How's school?
    -School is going well so far. I actually decided to only take one class this semester while I'm trying to "find myself" or at least figure out what I really want to do.

2. Why don't we hang out?
    Good question. I'm very, very socially awkward and have a hard time calling/messaging people and asking them to hang out.

3. What ( Read more... )

fuck.

Here's the deal. You are my friend. Thus, you are my friend for life. This, apparently, does not make me your friend for life.

Okay, I don't call often enough. I'll be the first to admit that. I'm so awkward on the phone and I feel like I'm talking to myself. So I send messages on myspace, a product of our times. At least it's something.

I don't ( Read more... )

We know people. And we trust people. Can we every completely trust a person after that trust is broken?

I'd like to think so. But does is it always supposed to be at the back of your  mind? Forgotten until it will hurt you the most? Using it as a tool to further your depression and self loathing?

And it's never the other person's fault. No no, it's ( Read more... )

 I just remembered something!!

I have a mystery reader!

or do I? Are you still there? How've you been? I'm doing pretty well. Michael just pulled brownies out of the oven, so now I'm GREAT!

Here marks my first week in Arcata. All things considered, I've been doing better than I thought I would.
I've already called my family at least once and I haven't had to call my mother every day. Haha, yes, this is an accomplishment for me.

Things have been going well. I've put in a lot of job applications and I've already had one interview. I ( Read more... )

We got the little house! We're both really excited, it's like twice the size of where we live now.
It's kind of scary, though. It's going to be hard for awhile I'm sure, but do-able. It's so weird moving out of Siskiyou county. I've been here for so long...

But it's this cute little duplex house with a little backyard and spacious rooms. I'm so ( Read more... )