so the other night a couple of weeks ago, i started writing an entry, but i got so tired, that i didn't finish it. i saved what i did write, and i would like to record it sometime, but it is something i would like to forget ( Read more... )

i had a threesome last night.

well i am feeling better, i would put it at 85 percent better. it will take me a while, but each day i feel more and more able to handle this change, that drew is not with me anymore. i tried to keep telling myself that really, i still get to do everything with him except for kiss and spend the night and some romantic things like that. i can ( Read more... )

well, my assumptions were correct about drew being with that other girl. he told me on friday and i just lost it. and he was trying to be really nice to me and tell me that her and him might not always be together and if me and him were to work out again then it would, and that i was an amazing person. i asked him why, and he said he didn't know ( Read more... )

it's been a long time since i have written. but that doesn't mean that my life has been uneventful. actually it means the very opposite. and i will maybe write about it later ( Read more... )

things have been going very well. last week i started working with diana bellgowan, architect. it's an awesome opportunity. here i spent all of this time going around to these firms, and i end up working with diana, who works in her basement at home. her husband is a professor at unca and he kinda looks like the gay guy on as good as it gets. ( Read more... )

i miss bucko. i haven't talked to him in two measily days, but i still miss him. i wish that i didn't but i can't help it. how is anyone supposed to go being with someone every day and sleeping with someone every night to not seeing them for three months? i don't know ( Read more... )

today i finally got to visit my beloved downtown, not completely at my leisure, but to see about a job. i haven't really driven in great length for a while, and when i finally got to the lot i was going to park in, i somehow was able to fenagle myself into the narrowest parking space i have ever parked in. i was running late, and it was hot as ( Read more... )

i have been home for a week. and... well... yeah ( Read more... )

so i'm finally at home after the most difficult semester of my college career. so far, i think it was fairly successful. i learned a lot, and i learned things about me that work, and things that i need to change ( Read more... )