this is it. the last week of studio ( Read more... )

feeling a whole heck of a lot better. i'm hoping that this won't be temporary, and perhaps get me through the rest of the semester at the very least ( Read more... )

so as much as i love spending time with drew, i really need to start thinking about others. i got up to pee at five this morning, and there was a big sign on the door that read: PLEASE SHOWER ALONE. that was mortifying, i have to say, which is probably what i needed, as painful as it is. i should especially have known better after last year, the ( Read more... )

so maybe i have mentioned before hand that i haven't been writing a lot because i haven't had a lot of alone time. and that indeed has been the case. i am with drew a lot, and i really care about him. the strange thing is is that sometimes, it seems like he cares about me more than i do him. usually i feel like it's vice versa. i was head over ( Read more... )

my life has been so busy. things have been going well for the most part. most part... i've been spending a lot of time with drew with a lot less of instances where i've been upset, although the other night i was upset. i was just talking to him about how i went to confession that night and then up started the whole religion conversation. he ( Read more... )

i just got a bunch of mail that my dad and my grandma sent me a week ago. and it made me cry, because i miss home so much. another thing i wanted to mention when i wrote last is how i really feel like the odd one out. and i was alright with this. i really don't want to get plastered and not remember what i did the night before. that kind of ( Read more... )

many things. i haven't written in a long time, but not because i haven't had anything to write about. i have been spending a lot of the time i'm not working, hanging out with drew. he seems to be the topic of discussion lately, in good and perhaps not so good ways. i'll get to that later ( Read more... )

today i feel a lot better. granted i know in the future that i won't have the entire day to my leisure, that i will probably be having to do work at this time, i really needed this day to relax and ease back into just being here instead of being home. i needed a good night sleep and a good, calm feeling day to give me the confidence that i can do ( Read more... )

for two second i was worried that i was pregnant. after rejoicing in the bathroom when i found out i wasn't, i did a lot of thinking ( Read more... )

just like that, the panic has lifted. it is so weird how it comes and goes, like a roller coaster, but i think now that with the other corresponding events, that it has something to do with hormones, seeing as that has been kind of a trend (or coincidence that has been happening for three months). either way, i am going to bring it up at my next ( Read more... )