well... i'm having some problems ( Read more... )

well last night, drew pretty much said that he didn't want to have a relationship with me. this is ok. i was getting annoyed with his negativity. i don't know if i was overreacting or not, but i was telling him how on new year's eve, i was watching a dave matthews concert on tv and i was excited about that. so he mentioned the incident where ( Read more... )

very busy week, i am glad to have tomorrow off. i must clean my room though, i really don't think i have cleaned it in two years ( Read more... )

first and foremost, i would like to say that mentally things are looking good, except, that i am a hypochondriac. i think if i could just go to the doctor and have a checkup and know that things are really ok, then i would feel one hundred percent better. but since two of my friends, my age, have/have died from cancer, every pain i have i can't ( Read more... )

back at home, working like i haven't been out of work for four months. i hate not being able to take breaks, but the rest of the store is so slammed, that i would feel bad asking for one instead of helping them. that's the thing that sucks about me, having my moral, having my work ethic. it's almost as if i go to work to do someone a favor. why ( Read more... )

like always, i stressed out about the outcome of the semester, and it seems to get worse every semester, but i believe it is all working out, but i won't talk about it until i know for sure. it is so good to be home, i feel great ( Read more... )

finished with spanish! finally! although i am worried because i blanked out during the essay, i always get communists, socialists, republicanists, all those ists mixed up, who did what during the war. even in english. i got a c on the paper, which i'm alright with, but! he said it would have been higher if i had proper endnote format. but! i ( Read more... )

i just had a conversation with michael. we are not friends anymore, which makes me sad in the respect that we seemed to be such good friends this summer. i thought going to the same school would be cool, we could hang out together, etc. but that didn't happen really. i wish i wasn't so hoping or trying to make something out of nothing. i hung ( Read more... )

it is quite interesting how i've been spending my time. i have been feeling very liberal and very grown up. it has been good, the past week or so. i had my final presentation, and although everyone said it went great, i wasn't too sure about it. the thing that was funny, was that when i went to drew's review, i had spilled coffee all over my ( Read more... )

finally! i finished my studio final last night. i really like this time, as a metaphor, it's like parents on christmas eve, shipping everyone off to church, making food, wrapping presents in secret, decorating, all of this chaos to produce an ultimate prize of christmas morning. that is what this week is like every year. next week this will be ( Read more... )