soo i'm home now. i feel weird. i feel really detached from everything. i feel like i died and the world kept spinning and i'm a ghost. i'm not here. people see me but i'm not here. i know whats going on around me but i'm not here. maybe its my lack of drug intake. it might be that my break from reality let me kinda see what the hell was goin on. ( Read more... )

man o man am i pissed...my hair bleaching didn't work. i was sooo looking forward to it. :( i thought it was gonna take care of the ugly ass orange and black. it didn't. however...if it would have all been the same color as my roots (VERY ORANGE), it would SOOO look like leeloo's (that chick from 5th element) hair! i was really pissed. i wanted it ( Read more... )

yo thought i'd update. not much to say. can't wait till i'm on the beach, chillin the fuck out. and i can't wait till heather gets here because everybody i know is really fuckin shitty.

so basically my life is like a dream. i have no clue why i'm here or what i'm doing, everything seems to have SOME kind of meaning but i can't figure out what is what. everything is really blurry but really clear at the same time. hopefully when i wake up i won't be able to remember any of it. instead these images will probably ring through my head ( Read more... )

yoooo went out with wes and erica tonight. LOL erica's face was all dead on one side cause she had some dental work done or some shit. she fuckin looked like little nicky. it was great. we kept callin her like bipolar cause one side was all sad and the other was normal and she'd laugh and look like one of those people that have had a stroke and can ( Read more... )

yo whats up, today was alright. those pills just kinda make me pissed. i hung out with misty, veronica, and ashley. we had a kick ass time. i really like those gals. i just feel really ok with them, more than anybody i hang out with now. we're just all on the same level. its a great feeling. i don't wanna take the pills anymore, maybe i'll give it ( Read more... )

went to the dr. today. i have borderline personality disorder. that was kinda outta no where but he gave me this little book to read about it and it fit me exactly, the fear of abandonment, the detachment from reality, the mood swings and some other stuff i can't remember right now. i dunno i got some pills for it. i'm gonna start using them ( Read more... )

i'm feeling soo good right now. might be because i'm a little fucked up but whatever. i just feel good. soo i had a weird weekend. me and dill went and saw hitchiker's guide but i was way too hung over to even enjoy it. :( sam was lookin SOOOO much like nick though, which made me even sadder. anyway...the weekend was just fucked all the way around ( Read more... )

whoa..i just read what i wrote...i have become the biggest dork ever. i used to be FUCKED UP every fucking day. all fucking weekend. my life always does this. i'll go from like livin on the egde to being a fucking hermit. why can't my life be constantly unpredictable. like there have been times when it was like that. like months on end i had NO ( Read more... )

howdy, ooh man i feel sick. like puking sick. i took some pillz today and i need more. i was seriously out of it. 4th period felt like 5 min. and we kept having to move around the room for some reason and i was falling all over the place. anywho soo yeah, i'm gonna be goin to wendy's tonight that should be fun. i have a lot of fun with her. i wanna ( Read more... )