Friday night I took a tumble, as in face planted into a sewer grate, and banged up my left hand and knee a little bit. This is pure speculation, but yesterday my left thigh hurt like a mutha and I'm not sure if it's because of The Accident but it definitely feels like I pulled a muscle ( Read more... )

I think I'm in love. I'm trying to fight it and I'm also trying not to fight it. I can't concentrate very well, and my moods oscillate between anxiety and euphoria. When I don't fight it feels like bliss. I don't know how he feels and that is what kills me when I let it. That is why I try to fight it. It's an exercise in patience and self-

This morning TF and I rolled into Athens a little before 6AM. It was dark and dead quiet except for the whoosh of the highways and a train sounding its horn in the distance. I unpacked my car, opened my mail, went to the bathroom, lit some incense, rolled a joint and enjoyed dawn on my back porch. All the leaves are gone from the trees and the ( Read more... )

"Yes, well, I am a bluesman in the life of the mind; I’m a jazzman in the world of ideas, which means I’ve got to forge my unique voice, tied to my vocation with a vision, and a unique style. And it’s a voice and style that doesn’t fit well within highly professionalized and specialized contexts ( Read more... )

i am sitting in my room watching a sheet of smoke drift out the window. sometimes small tendrils will waft by and it curls around itself doing somersaults on the way out. i am thinking about how happy i am and why my brain chemistry doesn't transmit that message. i am planning on leaving my roommates my virginia family on May 29 and how I will ( Read more... )

I paused writing my last entry about my seatmate on the metro for work at an office I'd been at for 5 weeks. I had fully intended to pick it back up and finish it in the next day or so. You know what they say about the best-laid plans of mice and men, though ( Read more... )

This morning i boarded the 7th car and stood for one stop. Then I got out and scooted back to the last car, which was less full. I found a seat, which was the entire purpose for moving cars.

get pregnant & apply for welfare
work as bookkeeper for family
live with parents
go to PJC and become teacher
go to PJC and become RN/LPN
fuck someone up & rob them

I really really really just want to live in Pensacola Florida more than anything in this whole wide world.

current dream theme: rejection, anxiety, acceptance of friends or acquaintances