things are much harder now, now that my father is on my case and he has my 10 year old sister watching my every move
i have to eat..it kills me
my boyfriend doesnt help
i need to throw up right now, i am on a diet but i just feel i should dive in head first rather than pussy footing with restrictive diets...i should just nothing it

i go back to england tomorrow ( Read more... )

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i have to stop thinking that this is easy ( Read more... )

hey hey hey!!
well just average today ladies!!!
guess what?!
i am starting this new thing called

You are not good enough. You are too fat, unattractive, imperfect. You're a flabby mass of disgusting flesh. You are weak. All this about "Oh, I'll fast tomorrow, I'll still lose weight if I eat this, blah blah blah"- it's bullshit. There IS no tomorrow. You do this TODAY or you don't do it at all. You do not want to stay as you are now- you are ( Read more... )

i am missing phil so much and i have no idea what to do about this (this being me and yeh ( Read more... )

the heat is unbearable.....i cant think i can hardly breathe!!
i cant take it anymore, i seem to not be losing any weight and i dont understand what i am doing wrong! i want to see my ribs again!
i cant take this..how long do i have to wait?!

i cannot be bothered to pack this god damn house, we have until the end of july and i havent packed one thing ( Read more... )

breakfast-1/2 a bread slice with tomato puree
snack-NOTHING
lunch-2 egg whites and 2 tomatoes
could i eat more...i think not!!
why do i do this to myself!
i am going to bed now so i wont eat.....i am tired anyhoo!