or wishing I was there 3 years ago, maybe just maybe...wishful thinking. Missing you Shana alot lately. Listened to the Beatles today, yesterday and your favorite, oh, darling....I can still hear you singing in my bedroom to it... Love you, mom

he died last Monday...so I don't know if he's celebrating or not. He kept talking about Shana before he died, how ironic. I have been thinking alot about her lately and life and death in general. 4 people that I know have died in the last 2 weeks, I am sick of funeral parlors and gravesites. But I go to say my goodbyes and to pay my respects to the ( Read more... )

Today is the big birthday that everyone dreads, not the 40, but the...I can't even bring myself to say it. Of course Shana would've teased the hell out of me today about my age, but how I wish she were here to tease me....I miss her sarcastic wit, especially now...Hope all is well with you all... I got a Nano ipod for my birthday so it wasn't too ( Read more... )

Merry Christmas everyone. Hope this day brings joy and peace to all. All is well at my house, no ghosts of Christmas past. No snow on the horizon either...it's suppose to be almost 50 degrees today. Love to all. Sue

Christmas is now officially 1 week away. Any of you who want a card from me better leave me your address immediately. I have officially moved into the house. I am on the top floor of a 2-family house. To celebrate the move, I spent way too much money. New bedroom set, nasa foam mattress, etc. new HDTV flat 37 inch, larger than any man in my life... ( Read more... )

Someone told me today that I was a cuter version of Bjork, I told him I would get out my swan dress and wear it for him..lol...As I walked away he said, I liked your new album...men are such jerks sometime....I told him I liked his new face...I am starting to move into my new place. I am renting out a 2 family house, I have the top floor. The only ( Read more... )

Tonight is the night before your 22nd birthday, and I am hurting badly. There is such a void in my life without you here, you cannot imagine the pain I live with everyday. You have been on my mind alot lately. It seems like my life is in such a turmoil these days. Nothing seems like it will ever be right. I just keep busy working my ass off and ( Read more... )

I have had a rough go of it lately. It seems like everything has been reminding me of her lately. School is starting this week and the start of school reminds me that she is not around. She won't be around for her birthday on the 18th or any of the holidays that she loved so well. Summers are especially hard, you have alot of time on your hands to ( Read more... )

Yesterday a 20 year old boy asked me out..I stared blankly at him and asked him if he wanted to come over and play video games with Brett since he was obviously jailbait for me...I think I crushed his ego...Oh well, summer has started and it's been hot here..Brett started summer school, he flunked academic algebra. Hopefully he will pass it in the ( Read more... )

Last week when I was at a low point in my illustrious life, Vera sent me a present. Thanks so much Vera, you are the best! You fit in the best people category, which does'nt hold alot of seats. Alot of people are the worse, and you all know who you are....but they seem to suck us up in their world and we just fall into their dark holes. Watch out ( Read more... )