so i just found out the only love that i have ever known is going over to Iraq. if i didn't love him like i do it probably would be as big of a deal as it is. it really doesn't help that everything between us is so up in the air. FUCK..all i want is to be with him. if im not ment to be with him i wish there would be a sign to be with someone else. ( Read more... )

i am so sick and tired of this fucking emotional roller coaster that i am on! And for what??? At this point it is all for nothing. All he is a silver-tounged liar! he is soooo fucking good at leading me on and having me there when it is convientent for him. His fucking friends acknowledge me more than he does.. next time you read that i am ( Read more... )

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i finally know what job i am going after once i graduate. its call an imate services clerk...it deals with the booking and releasing of inmates. i want to stay there for awhile then move to being an evidence costodian. while i am doing all of this i can begin my forensic classes and get my certificate. where in foresics is still undetermined. but ( Read more... )

so i wrote scott an email to try and get him to say something about the other girl. i has asked him why he thought that the notch on your bedpost blog was about him. The response i got wasn't exactly what i wanted but well...im gonna just let you read a bit of it for yourself ( Read more... )

so right now this is my only outlet. i can't talk to friends...they don't get it...can't talk to mom...she can't help...can't blog on myspace...he actually reads it (go figure)...so i have turned to live journal and all you lovely people who are actually bored enough to read this ( Read more... )

well my problem is solved and a huge weight has been lifted off my shoulders. Just when i get happy again something comes up that just wants to make me kill.
Im not just a game and lately that is all that i have been treated like. im FUCKING TIRED OF IT. i thank god that i stopped caring awhile ago.

ha ha...i just got a new pen...its captin hook...red and black and it lights up...yes im a nerd so what!! You got a problem with that?!?! ha ha ( Read more... )

i am sitting in my juvenille justice class...really don't want to be here...waiting to take the mid-term...don't think im going to do very good. but we will see. so this wed. is thanksgiving. I am going to my aunt's house. her house is so gross...i would rather stay out in the car. that and i just don't really like thanksgiving. that and i don't ( Read more... )

so i went and saw "you know who" on saturday. i was really nervous but it turned out really good (maybe that is bad). once we met up it was like we were old friends and there wasn't anymore awkardness. then we went and played glow in the dark mini golf down at the great mall....I have so much fun just being a total nut ball. i really need to go to ( Read more... )