just got off the phone with scott. i know y it would never work. it is a very interesting situation..i still love him but i think i love the old him. i don't know...i still don't get it. but i am going to go see him sometime this weekend. I really want to go see him now but i can't do that to myself. things just cant be the way they were. we arn't ( Read more... )

well...the fucker actually called me!!! the one time i don't want him to he fucking calles. what gets me even more it that he called me babe. its sooo hard to ignore that. so i am calling him back tonight. it will be interesting to see what happens especially since the number is from a 510 areacode. but yea...call you believe i have written on this ( Read more... )

A lot is happend since i last updated but also at the same time a lot hasn't happend. well...halloween was fun...stressful but fun. School still sucks...went to danielle's birthday party...lots of fun. nice to see everyone again! and for once NO DRAMA!! it is such a rarity for there to be no drama in san jose. that is probably why i stopped going ( Read more... )

so i have decided not to try and go to san jose for halloween. saturday my friend mike is having a party! so im going to that. I know it is happening and if i get to drunk i can just walk home. i don't have to worry about driving or someone else driving me. good times. then on halloween i am going to pleasnton to pass out candy with my grandma... ( Read more... )

I don't wanna spend another night ( Read more... )

Hey everyone...im trying to get a 4-banger car together so i can move from crew to driver at chowchilla speedway...if you know anyone who has a 4 cylinder, front wheel drive, in decent condition car that is willing to give it up for cheap let me know...I AM DESPERATE!!! let me know thanks ( Read more... )

i just read my last entry....i really need to start reading these things before i post them...sorry i made absoloutly no sense...ha ha im a nerd!

i am back from disneyland...totally awesome...so much walking but sooo worth it. i had to ditch finals for it and put on some dramatics for a lie but what the hell...ya know...i am sooo tired from the trip though...i HATE AIRPLANES!!! we had the smallest one ever...3 seats across...yuck! i cried going through the museum...don't ask y...so i got ( Read more... )

everything is soooo messed up right now!!! come to find out i am flying out to go to disneyland tomorrow night!!!! stress...stress....stress!!! now i am going to completly miss finals and for one of my finals is the mock trial...i am supposed to do the closing statement....hopfully we can get through it all tomorrow....that way i don't let anyone ( Read more... )

i am in san jose right now...bored...watching football with my uncle...waiting for danielle to call me...i went with my mom and roxie to dogs day in the park...it sucked! i miss my baby lots right now!!!if i didn't have school tomorrow id be with her right now...damn it!!! so yea...i get to see her on tues...but i wont see her again till sat....* ( Read more... )