I know you're trouble. I know that no good can come of talking to you. You broke my heart and didn't seem to care. All this time goes by and you say hello b/c it's christmas? that's a fucking excuse if I've ever heard one. I used to enjoy your company until I came to the realizaton that I was being used. I'd blame you for ruining what I had but I ( Read more... )

I haven't updated this thing in so long I figured, hey I have some time... so why not. Things are going pretty good other than not having a car and not having a job now because of a shitty self centered friend. She was my ride and I understand that she's going through a lot of shit right now and can't work anymore and she needs to do whats best for ( Read more... )

Wow, it's been so long since I posted a journal entry. I just feel like I need to get some things out that have been building up. My dad passed away last friday from what can I guess be classified as "death by misadventure" because he died of a an overdose of pills that he took on purpose. SO was it a suicide or overdose or both? I wasn't close to ( Read more... )

The worst feeling in the world is knowing that you lost someone and also knowing that there is nothing you can ever do to get them back.

I am not talking about someone who has passed away but rather someone who is still living. That's the worst part... they are still here and I can't be with them. I can't see their face everday and just think of how ( Read more... )

This is retarded. It's 4 in the freaking morning and I can't sleep. I slept 13 hours last night and drank caffeine before I went to bed b/c all we had to drink was coke, so I am tired but my body is restless. I laid in bed for about 2 hours trying to sleep and It just wasn't happening. So when I do fall asleep, which will probly be around anywhere ( Read more... )

What do you say to someone to cheer them up when you agree with them 100% about what's upsetting them? One of my friends is very lost. He feels the same way that I do about life. I am not a very big fan of life. I'm not suicidal but I don't want to be here or have to deal with life at all and if I were to die today, I would be absoloutely fine with ( Read more... )

Brian's mum wants me out of the house b/c I quit my job. I gave my 2 weeks notice b/c i hated my job. I had to stand outside in the cold, which is only going to get colder, for 4 hours. I have bad blood circulation so no matter how much I wear, i am still going to be cold. I plan on getting a new job, it's not like i am going to sit on my ass like ( Read more... )

Some people have the shittiest luck for absoloutely no reason at all. Why is it always the nice people who "god" shits all over? Like seriously, fucking a! grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! Enough about that. I hate my job. It's the same thing everyday and I really don't like dogs all that much to begin with and I have to be out in the cold for a few hours ( Read more... )

So I have been in a really good mood lately. I have a job!!! I work at the dog kennel with brian but not in the same part of it. I am not much of a dog person, but hey it makes me money! I also got out of the house last night and hung out with my friend Dwayne, we watched movies. I hadn't seen him in 2 years! He's a really nice guy. My birthday's ( Read more... )

I own a hampster yet a mouse scares me. I am being stalked by a mouse. I was sitting on the toilet the other night, doing my thing, and a mouse ran out from behind the toilet and went right by my feet! Then I saw the same mouse again and this time he was over by the chimney and when i saw him, he stopped and looked at me! Then he hid when he saw ( Read more... )