So I turned down a free trip to NY yesterday. I guess the main reason I did is because I don't want to go back to NY so soon after moving down here... My mom ended up flying up there anyway, and my sister had her baby. A girl, as was predicted. I still can't get over the fact that my sister is married and now a mother. So strange. Also strange: to ( Read more... )

I've moved once again, I'm back in Columbia, MO. And although I loved some things about NY, I'm glad to be gone. NY is a depressing state, prices are too high, wages too low, rent too expensive. You have to work twice as hard just to make ends meet. So I'm in Columbia again, and I've been back for two months now. Yet, I haven't seen a single person ( Read more... )

I just realized that last time I posted (besides the entry I just made) was late September. So basically I didn't post at all during the semester. That's how much school stresses me out... :-P If anyone bothers reading this and wonders who "him" is, all I want to say is make sure that tell the people around you how you feel. You never know when it' ( Read more... )

I miss him.

Five hours per night is not enough sleep. I feel like I was ran over by a stem-roller. Or a steam roller. I have problems. In brighter news, the moon isn't going to crash into the earth until next week. Until then, live long and prosper. And eat your fucking peas. And call a bitch. And I think that's enough "and"s. Wait, one more. And don't waste ( Read more... )

I am sick of everyone in my life. Sick of my "friends", my asshole ex, so on and so on. My friend wants to get with me. He even said that he would love to marry me someday. I'm just like, wtf? I don't think I would ever go with him, he's done/said some things that make me think he wouldn't be the greatest boyfriend. My ex wants me to "take a break ( Read more... )

I recently started talking to a guy I used to know forever ago. We were were friends on and off starting like four years ago. So, for the hell of it, I talked to him. Yeah, I guess I should have known that you stop talking to old friends for a reason. He's still funny as hell and everything (and he's gotten more cute lol), but all he cares about is ( Read more... )

I'm taking six classes and trying to find a job. I need a job within a week or so otherwise I have to go beg my grandparents for rent money. Seriously, next time I ever think about taking six classes and working full time, someone admit me into a mental institution. Well, don't count next semester because I also have to take 6 classes then. But ( Read more... )

I hate having to appear strong to everyone else when really I just want to jump off the face of the earth. I hate being blown off by everyone who is supposed to care about me, my friend, my boyfriend, my sister, hell even my mom. I have feelings too, you fucking insensitive jerks. Just because I always appear together and in control of things doesn ( Read more... )

Right now, I live in Ithaca. It's only half an hour away from where lived for most of my childhood. I went to school in Ovid until 11th grade, and I hated every minute of it. It's a small ass school, and there are barely 100 people in each grade. That meant everyone knew each other, and the groups of people were clearly defined. I always felt ( Read more... )