I feel a little better than a few days ago. I get that way sometimes, it kind of sucks.

I feel frozen again, callaced, confused, frustrated, distant, untrusting. Why is it that the artists always constantly put themselves into suffering, whether mental, addiction or whatever it is that makes them constantly hurt themselves, again and again. It never stops. It happens in cycles. We are very rarely ever truely happy. We are rarely ( Read more... )

or am I just going crazy?
Why do I have suspicions when there's no evidence backing it up?
Should I be worried?
I have no idea.

Emilio's band, not my type of music, but oh well ( Read more... )

concerning alot of things. It's the point in my life where I'm sick of planning everything, and sick of worrying. I've planned out alot of things in the past two years and the plans kinda blew up in my face. I am beyond confused. I don't know where I want to go to college, let alone what for. Or if I even really want to go to college anymore. I'm ( Read more... )

The small solstice party was amazing ( Read more... )

Slow down you move too fast, you got to make the moments last, just kicking around the cobble stones, looking for fun and feeling groovy. Simon and Garfunkel were very right, that could be applied to love, don't move too fast, don't think about the future, you just gotta enjoy the world together. you know what I mean? Why be so serious in the first ( Read more... )

I've realized alot of things today. I dont need a buddy to make me happy, and its shallow and superficial to be wanting one. That would make me just like every other teenage loser that cares about looks and sex. Sex is an indulgence, and it shouldn't be with some random person who can't even kiss. So it makes me feel stupid for wasting my time ( Read more... )

I need a buddy like really bad. lol I have my eye on someone but I dont know about it at this point. that is all.

so I haven't been home in about four days ( Read more... )