So, these days seem harder than most. I want to say no, and I should, and I just might. Could it be that I need a reassurance of assumptions? Should crying be the only release worthy of these days? I've been thinking about my old waking up habits. Saltine at my side, a stumble into an empty quiet house. A worry free morning with music filled ( Read more... )

and the touching leads to sex. and then there is no mystery left. waiting for a class to dwadle on its way. I'm completely exhausted, completely a fool, I know I'm alone if I'm with or without you. THe bad dreams lead me to holding you, to calling you. I had an embarassing couple of days, but I'm a walking corpse, I could be worse, I could be ( Read more... )

The time is right ( Read more... )

december 31, 9 pm mountain standard time from here on in I shoot without a script, see if anything comes of it, instead of my old shit.  The day after tomorrow and boy am I going to swoon, over tea and conversation, over the way you stare at me and laugh at me, see what there is time to see.  Old root beer, new things old very old things.  He's so ( Read more... )

she cried when she should and she laughed when she could. I could have knocked off the weekend, you let me down, no use deceiving, neither of us want to be alone. But I do think about you less than I did. I'm watching my nephew running in circles, my niece carrying a can of root beer, its getting dark, my headache still lingers, the day feels so ( Read more... )

All my life, though some have changed. sick looking appendage, takes grace from you. Memories lose their meaning though I know I'll never lose affection. My life I love you more. Story, a girl who came to stay. Its not that hard, its not that hard. But I've never done anything like that before. aahhh, girl. Weak legs shaking in the shower ( Read more... )

Blood blocking my lips romantic when thinking about vampires and kissing and photography. The sore gleams and sparkles but provides no beauty or allure. I can't get the fruit there's a ghost right there. shake our bodies to lift our minds. For a moment I will never love like you. For a moment I didn't mind my face with all its imperfections. ( Read more... )

leave it as the door slams shut, and all the time, I need patiencce. Diiieeeeeddd my hair last night, its chocolate coated lovely. I wanted that hour to be the slowest hour of my life, but it hardly was. Fuck, yesterday, looked at a familar book flipped to a page. Infinite. Thinking about grassroots a round around all around. How it would ( Read more... )

so bloody evermore how can you play a piece if you haven't felt it. The cut on my thumb is disappearing, you know whats eating you, what choice did he have. Why does something hurt so much, the uncertainty, the worry the paranoia. I'm ready to know, what you really mean, what really matters, what the soul is made off. soft marks shows age like ( Read more... )

My darling little moshka. My rings are aching and my teeth are quaking. I've got years to wait around for you. I have two reflective indents in my face, look, one says I'm foolish the other tells me I can never change it...and its alrighttttttttt everythings alright everythings alright, sleep and I shall soothe you. I'm afraid there is no way I ( Read more... )