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Forever and a day…….
It’s been forever and a day since I’ve posted here. I’ve married, I’ve been widowed, I’ve broken my leg, been through 3 surgeries and moved twice. It feels like a lifetime has happened in these not many years ( Read more... ) -
An on going reminder....
The hardest thing about being a caterpillar is that you have little control about when and where you enter the darkest period of your life. Something takes over and you have to obey it, you have no control, so you wrap yourself up your cocoon and have nothing to do but think and dream and reflect in the darkness on your life on the ground. And, ( Read more... ) -
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I'm sick of waking up to this damn life. Between this damn leg and home, I feel just over all this. -
New Therapist
I met with the new therapist today. I like her as of the hour we spent talking. She is into a form of energy work, so we'll see what comes of it. I'm hopeful, but tomorrow will tell. If my meds doctor does not feel this new avenue is enough then I'm still facing a stint in the hospital. All outpatient programs have rejected me since I'm not able to ( Read more... ) -
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I'm lonely, scared and have a hard time leaving the space/box we live in. People say talk and I'm SCREAMING! The psychiatrist is being very laid back and isn't following up and I am. I'm being rejected time and time again. Dave doesn't fully get it because I doesn't believe in all this crap, but at the same time says he supports my needs for help ( Read more... ) -
UGH
So the doctor calls me back and says that the program he was speaking of is in Bristol (not near me at all) and then gave me to name of two other hospitals who offer a day program. Then says, you call them and figure out if you can go.
Don't kill yourself working asshole.
They wonder why people are fucking crazy. So damn tired. -
Lost...again!
I feel like I've got things under control. I actually fight really hard for them to be ok. It seems the reality is I'm fighting and in the end nothing is changing and I'm expanding a lot of energy/emotion for nothing ( Read more... ) -
What happened?
Dave and I went to a state park that me and friends used to pretty much live at. Those times were filled with so much laughter, spiritual freedom and freedom. Freedom to be who we were and embrace that. Freedom to feel what we were feeling and feeling safe in our group to share that ( Read more... ) -
So much going on!
Yup I still know what LJ is and I read it pretty much everyday, not that most use it anymore ( Read more... ) -
Under way...
So it seems things are under way but maybe not as fast or in the manner in which I had hoped it would be. I'm not sure why I had expected anything less ( Read more... )