I need to lose 60lbs in 6 months. Yikes. My blood sugar is wacky and I gained all the weight in the world plus,back....bad things happened and I ate every feeling. Fuck what was I thinking ( Read more... )

I haven't been on in so long I can't find my friends page...it just keeps giving me thevseytings for my friends' page.lol. I need a place where I can write and think and talk. Where people understand and talk...instead of not.

There are undeniable, recognizable patterns in the development of eating disorders. Someone says something to you and it sticks, because you believe what they said is true. So, of course I have my own myriad of sayings. I also have looks; I remember the looks of their faces, their reactions, what they said and although these reactions may have ( Read more... )

anyone use lj talk? i just got a new computer (windows vista) and so i tried to install the new 2. something version but it wouldn't sign in saying id dn't have voice output or something..wth. i dont know what's missing on this computer its only been 2 days since i got it. my last one was pimped out and now.. well i'm starting all over agian. ( Read more... )

silly electronic scale. moves between 178 and 179.
SO!
i will find the curage to go into the city by myself.
that's not what i'm afraid of.. i'm afraid of the bus ride there.lol. guess i'll just go hit up a bus station and wait.
woot

amber :)

i'm in north carolina ( Read more... )

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thank you burger kind, chocolate, mountain dew, frozen pizzas, salt and vinegar chips and most of all i'd like to thank those cute little kahluah drinks already made (mudslide and b52?).
what a wonderful night last night
and what a wonderful day ahead

today is the 4th. screw it. fat ass on couch +tv =me temporarily happy!

anyone ever watch (FX's) US release tv series (only 7 eps) of "STARVED ( Read more... )

173-174lbs this afternoon (1pm ( Read more... )

it's 8 am , and i couldnt' wait any longer. I weigh 185.. -1 lbs on my 1st day fast.. Onto day two!

My stomach hurts, but not from hunger... that pain that the dr call an infection...feels like something else :\

well i hope today goes well. i'm not hungry, just bored. which one's worse?

:) I hope i get to go swimming today.