Mmmm hummm, HOKEY kicked butt! Michelle won Ultimate Fan. We were on the big screen like seven or eight times! We were tided up for three in the last period. They went into over time, and we scored the goal for the win, it was intense! Love'n it, my voice is shot.

As I am sitting down to eat my breakfast I spill my coffee and make a lovely mess of things. Of course I get pissed and say some thing stupid, only because I love my coffee. While I am in the midst of wiping up my little mess I bump my coffee and spill some more. Why do things like this happen, especially when I am not all the way awake and am ( Read more... )

Shortly after wards I found myself sitting alone in my bed with only the small string of christmas lights showing their warmth. I was flipping through the not so long ago made photograph album of the last year or so of my life. In these pages I saw faces that I loved and had loved me in return. I saw my smile bright with a joy that can not be hid. ( Read more... )

If there was a real reason for this entire it would be the very root of ulterior motives. I am tired, I am tired of relationships settled on the surface. I just want some thing real with the people around me. I am tired of the double standards, closed way of thinking. I am asking, meaning, wishing for a response. Is there such a thing, a person, a ( Read more... )

Okay I'll abmit it... I am drunk, and well I need to finish my applications. I have about four or five left and so not excited about any of these. And I am having a really hard time typing. I'll be right back I am going to make my self another drink, with what I am not quite sure.... okay I lied alittle I danced around in my kitchen to John Mayer ( Read more... )

An orchard or a daisy. Some day I will be an old lady. Big red hat and lovely little slippers. I will sip spiced rum and eat yummy pastry. I will laugh with old friends, good friends. And make merry of our old age, our old wisdom. I will not talk of the weather or of my bunions. But of love and life and beauty.

At night there is a revolution waring inside my head. When I wake in the morning all that is left is an empty battle field with the remains of a heart break and empty promises.
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On the other side the snow is beautiful today.

WILL SOME ONE JUST FUCKING SHOOT ME AND GET IT OVER WITH. Its never going to be enough, for my self or the rest of the world which surrounds me. I can't breath this in any more and don't care to wake in my skin another day. A great sorrow, a great missing, a great mistake, slowly moving through my lungs. I want to stop breathing.... inhale, exhale ( Read more... )

If love can be lost then it was never there to begin. What ever you thought you were doing it wasn't for love ( Read more... )

In a place where things don't always make sense. Standing in a light where often times the important things become dim. You were standing at one point across from me there, just out side the light. But I walked away...