Six months ago, I went to my doctor's office and told him I had been having steadily increasing thoughts of suicide. That day, I more or less gave up on legitimate happiness and settled for it's biochemical equivalent. Am I ever going to be happy again? The kind of happy that matters? The kind I don't need to order refills for? I guess only time ( Read more... )

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"I was born with a hole in my heart... that pretty much set the tone."

-Greg Comitz

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Ever since I was very little, like 6 or 7, I've had a constant, prevalent feeling in the back corner of my mind that I was on the outside looking in. It's a feeling I could never completely shake or bring myself to verbalize in typical childhood conversations ( Read more... )

all things considered
i want to jump off a stage
i want to create
a world for you
create
an aggressive and intimate understanding
between us
the feeling is warm, tangible
unique
reliable
create a barrier
between us
and the nonsense
we live where we want
and do what we want
with our time
our time is thin
jump off with me

"A changing moment in my life came the day I first laughed. That was when life took a new form and my sad visions were cleansed by humor and from that day on I paid homage to comedy. From that day on I studied with the zeal of monks lost in religious rapture, the works of the comedy masters. For I loved comedy and I loved those that loved it. I ( Read more... )