for the first time today, or maybe even this semester I had fun at a party while I was sober. went to Kappa Sig party after dance practice for a couple of hours. even as I reached there, and the only liquid available being a glass of water, I did not give up my determination to have a blast. Called up Purkee on the way , but as she was high , and I ( Read more... )

Loveliness- Loneliness , Humbleness - Solitude ( Read more... )

I wonder sometimes , why my relationships with my friends are based upon. convenience, comfort, selfish motives, what is it ? Can they overlook differences and forgive me when i've done wrong and vice versa. can they hear my feelings and act accordingly, especially when I can't tell them how i feel. My biggest peeve is when my friends don't ( Read more... )

Sometimes I sense of detachment from my friends, some of the negative thoughts come into my mind about some people, who i care about. and I think it stems from my perception that they are very selfish at times, or have atleast been so in recently. I don't like selfish people, and when your own friends are so, what do you do ? my mind and heart is a ( Read more... )

what a screwed up nite, recovering from hangover all day saturday after mixing herbs and beer, and then as i get ready to party in the nite, bad things start to happen. first of all i deide not to drink or smoke that nite, as i am determined to have fun in full consciousness, so i go to the paltry club of spartys' to get the groove on, they don't ( Read more... )

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gotta find my motivation back. wasterd 3 hours in the lab today without doing a single task that required any effort. i don't know where i'm heading. i guess i'm still wasted from last nite, gotta have a sober head to do some work. well, last nite started off with a low note and was a lil better as the nite grew old. i was a lil frustrated that i ( Read more... )

sometimes i take my best friends for granted. for instance today I annoyed the hell out of nids while i was just tryiing to have fun, and even after knowing that she didn't enjoy it. I've done it time after time and i reallly have to stop. we guys have a knick of making our friends uncomfortable when it comes to lesbian issue, i'm sure my friends ( Read more... )

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2 days of hard work. wow, i'm surprised at myself, the break really did the trick for me. well i'm glad that i've rolled up my sleeves, and am found some focus and ambition again. someone said rightly, mistakes are the best opportunity to learn and I'm making the best out of it. I'm trying not to repeat the mistake i've committed in the past, and ( Read more... )