I graduated from Kalamazoo College two days ago -- summa cum laude, honors in physics, proud and relieved and happy. It's been an awfully long and bumpy road, hasn't it? My friends say that the time has flown by too fast, but not me. I feel each and every year of my K education in the weight of my step, the scattered gray hairs on my head, and the ( Read more... )

I really wanted to end my undergraduate education on a high note, but while working on the last physics problem of my last physics quiz, I realized that I honestly didn't know how to get through the math. After another half-hour, I shrugged my shoulders and wrote at the bottom of the page: "I can't figure this out. Oh well, I guess." And that was ( Read more... )

Each year for the past seven years, I've made a music mix that represents that year of my life. When I listen to the old mixes, I travel back in time, and it's interesting to actually hear how I've changed. So, for posterity's sake, here is my college soundtrack ( Read more... )

I just glanced back through my friends page for the first time in weeks... I feel like I've missed out on so much, which then made me feel guilty, which then led me to post an update. I'm still here, kind of ( Read more... )

I'm not willing to have sex without love, but I'm seriously considering it -- opportunities keep presenting themselves ( Read more... )

Right now, more than anything in the world, I just want to graduate and get the hell out of here. I'm finally feeling the effects of senioritis and, along with it, a growing malaise that tightens my jaw and hardens my stare. I don't like feeling this way. I want to be happy and fun and care-free, but it's getting harder and harder to smile ( Read more... )

In the end, I decided to attend Stony Brook University in the fall. Although I'll be living below the poverty line, I'll definitely have more opportunities and, I think I think I think, be happier than I would with my other options. So, that's settled. I'm thrilled and terrified, but that doesn't even begin to describe it ( Read more... )

Life comes full circle, as always. During the fall, I was swamped with work, buried under it, consumed by it, and I gave myself over to despair, deppression, general ruin. Not even exaggerating, it was the culmination of eight years of bad habits and pent up stress. Then, a change of heart: don't let work be life. So simple! The relative ease of ( Read more... )

I'd forgotten how amazing and frustrating a new language can be. I'm taking French 101, followed immediately by Spanish 491, along with a class on General Relativity, in which supposedly we speak English but actually just Math. I might as well be taking another language class. Je suis très occupé! Estoy muy ocupado! I'm very busy! E = mc^2, or

I don't know where to begin.

Although Columbia rejected me, Case Western Reserve and Stony Brook both accepted me with generous offers; I'm still waiting to hear back from the other three. I hope so hard that I'll end up in Madison or Seattle and not Cleveland or Boulder. Why are they taking so long?! I still  haven't learned how to wait.

But waiting ( Read more... )