http://youtu.be/1qMYH1WM2gI

Now that I've been watching orange is the new black, I have Regina Spektor's you've got time stuck in my head all the time and I like it.

I'm going to join a MC, my pal told me if I get a motorcycle, I'm in. Ironically I'm just like my favorite character in sons of anarchy. The love of my life is gone. I'm so Opie right now, sad pissed off missing my love hence why I want to join a gang when I get a bike. Die trying hard for my club, that way it sounds honorable. Ughh life sucks ( Read more... )

Went to the old tree that I used to climb up and talk to myself because I was an only child. In 5th grade on New Years Day was the last time I was here because I climbed down and the branch broke that I held on. I ended up with a laceration on my left arm and passed out, I woke up and had surgery at Bayshore. I remember my mom being worried and ( Read more... )

I'm at a whataburger you once asked me to get you a plain and dry with cheese. Can't even stomach to eat here now....glad I didn't drive.

When I pray at night, it's an Our Father, a Hail Mary and a Glory To Be. Afterwards I pray for the health of my parents, the health of my family in Slovakia and my family here, then my friends in Slovakia and the ones here. Then I pray for Carly, her mom Ginger, her dad John, her brother Ian and then her doggies Tate and Ruby. Tonight I had to add ( Read more... )

Saturday night I did cherry bomb and doll parts in order to get past my shyness and deal with this pain in a non destructive manner. Soon I will do this song by the cure-in between days to vent this pain of losing someone forever.

http://youtu.be/GsA1-bDJNyc

I read your livejournal today, "this really saved me from going down a dark self destructive path," spoken like a true selfish moron with no willpower. Way to use your pregnancy as a scapegoat, crutch, anchor or escape from yourself. You sound like a fucking idiot who shops at Walmart in her sweatpants. Well if it wasn't for baby Cassie or baby ( Read more... )

I sang Doll Parts last night and dedicated it to Courtney and Carly. I didn't need any liquid courage just depression.

I sigh and put out my cigarette on your parents' old driveway where you once stayed after crying. Jesus your old jetta is still there "Eva" that you once called it, I need to leave and cry more.....

I go to a place once my girlfriend lived and play seasick yet still docked, I know she won't hear it but it helps the pain. Thanks morrissey. I used to come here alot and await her, love of my life Carly now I just smoke cigs and cry which I'm about to do. Before it was reality bites and us watching spun. Now it's nothing. Yet I smoke a cigarette ( Read more... )