mm, the lack of me writing in here has increased tremendously. i havent been so called "busy" just relaxing and taking things easy & simple. i feel like a damn hippie with the feelings i have of just peace & relaxation. no worries what so ever; its awesome. hmmm theres not much new. august 6th is the big road test that i hopefullyyyy will pass so i ( Read more... )

whatever i always manage to fuck up. nothing new.
i hate myself.

so today i opened up to joe. i told him everything about my past, about my relationships with people, just things that make me who i am. i think he understands my madness a lil more now. i just wanted him 2 see why i am the way i am. why i care probs more than i should but do anyway. how i will do anything for anyone, even if they have hurt me ( Read more... )

Every day I wake up ( Read more... )

so its 4:07AM to be exact at the start of this journal. i dont have much to say so ill make this short and to the point ( Read more... )

so today i am now known as a CHS Senior c/o 2008. mm such nonsense i tell you! Well for the good note- i will be graduating with an ADVANCED regents diploma =] ch-yeah boyyyy! finally got that dumb global regents taken and passed. only took me 4 stupid times. and i passed history with ONE shot =] PLUSSSS i got mastery on it =] 86! =] what can i say ( Read more... )

so i passed all 3 of my regents! fuck yes! mmm i LOVE my teachers this year.

junior year is over. it went by so quickly. my last test is on tuesday. Had global(again) and Math B yesterday. i cant believe the year passed this quick. i didnt expect it to go by so quick at all. i thought it would go by slow. well, time flies when your having a good time. got my senior pictures in the mail today- i hate them so i am getting ( Read more... )

can we say nicole is going to absolutely BREAK DOWN? yeah umm ABOUT THAT! ugh this year has been the most rewarding year of my life and i wont ever forget it. my teachers were the most amazing people i have ever met and i just fell so much closer to some of them. the whole idea of being a senior next year frightens me at times. im ready yet im not ( Read more... )

My Guardian Angel ( Read more... )