Arg..... i need to work out, go to the gym or something, it is all too frustrating!!! @?*&%#$!!@#%$^*& (my swear words!!) I went to the doctor yesterday and saw that I gained 4 pounds. Now might not seem like a lot to some, but when you go to the doctor specifically to manage you weight, it is enough to make you feel like a failure! Yea, and as i ( Read more... )

My friend, this song is Wishing you were somehow here from Phantom of the Opera. I heard it and I thought of you. Download, maybe ( Read more... )

I don't know why I try anymore!

Last summer, I went sailing in the Bahamas for a week. It rained most of the time, so I was stuck inside the boat, with my family (YAY! :) ) Anyway, I spent a lot of time in my cabin that trip, and while in there I wrote a journal entry about things I should remember. Some are quotes that I remembered and some are just things that I felt. I forgot ( Read more... )

i haven't written a real entry in quite a long time. Everything has been going well, kinda. A few things have been going on that i am not quite sure about, a lot of them having to do with youth group, or really church in general. the first thing is that i don't understand how something that was so important to a certain person, now becomes ( Read more... )

I don't understand how if you kill someone, you can be sentenced to life in prision, or the death penalty, but if you abort a child, you are not punished. I can understand if the baby is dead in the womb or if has some horrible metal disease or physical disease, it might be alright to abort the child. But it is still a child, a human being, a gift ( Read more... )

I just can't deal with everything anymore

I think I've lost my faith. Or, did I even ever have it to begin with?

I hate to smile

The stoic part of me feels so diverse. It rarely seems to come out of me. Normally I can't or refuse to think, constantly running around and sacrificing myself to make people laugh or to make them happy, and the simple fact of it, is that I don’t care much about anything anymore. I find me trying to protect myself from anything, if not everything. ( Read more... )