by this morning i was happy because i had the answers. i had a future in line.

by this evening i am depressed, stressed, insulted, and angry.

....not that anyone cares.

fuck. fuck. FUCK!!!!
aaah....life is so frustrating sometimes.
i can't wait to be done with this whole situation. just get the damn thing over with.

in other news, my sister is a jerk. big shock.

and i am fucking sick of everyone demeaning my intelligence. fuck you.

i just re-read my whole last school year's worth of journal entries...well skimmed them, mostly from fall. i so didn't know what i had. aaah ( Read more... )

so my summer has consisted of ( Read more... )

i need something, but i'm not sure what. it's like this void. things are pretty much okay, but there's just always this undercurrant of...i don't know, discontent maybe? uncertainty. maybe that's more like it. and yes, i know i need a job...but it's more than that. that is only a fraction of this void, i think ( Read more... )

ugh...i need a future.

this is really a lot harder than i would have thought. i wish i knew what i wanted, and i wish i would have knowb this before i did the whole graduating from undergrad bit...

okay so:

i'm job hunting again. the types of jobs are all over the map...some quite unexpected really. i'm excited.

i may go to the gym with mom. i've been working out compulsively, but i skipped yesterday due to being extremely sore. i feel guilty. and fat. too much good food lately...haha.

....and, still no 4th of july plans. boo!

( survey )

Okay, so I didn't get the job....lame. Part of me wants to cry, and part of me is excited for other opportunities. I don't think I could have done any better or tried any harder. So now I have to re-evaluate my options. I have some websites to scan, some avenues to pursue, and some calls to potentially make ( Read more... )

no email yet.
sadface.

i'm getting concerned. i want this job so bad.

i was sick today. and really tired. blah...