it seriously makes me feel much better when i feel i am in control of my life. so today, i took charge of what is going on and now, i feel way better. yay. back to studying!

i noticed this recently. but seriously, whenever i see someone gorgeous, or something gorgeous, or read something beautiful, or hear and amazing song, or something of that sort, i feel shivers run up and down my spine. i really do worship beauty. whenever i see gorgeious people, i just cant help but look. whenever i see amazingly beautiful flowers ( Read more... )

ok so i never post any more. so what? i just took a nice shower and am reflecting a little. i always reflect in the shower. i think back to a year ago. it was all so fucking differrent. everything has changed so much. i'm like a new person now. i've really done some growing up. i have a job now. i'm constantly busy now. i like my life much better ( Read more... )

AMAZINGGG!!!!! partly cuz i wasnt home for more than like 10 days. also, cuz....of my escapades and "adventures". hehehe. camp goggles are gross. nobody should ever fall for them. staff banquet was amazing as was seeing a bunch of jews take over 3rd street promenade. amazing. my friend showed her amazing friend qualities by refusing to let me try a ( Read more... )

so today, i cleaned my room and it is now spotless. my desk is clutter free, my closet's clean. the floor is vacuumed. and as much as it looks like nobody lives there, it looks kinda good. now, i'm going shopping. my cousin, came back from europe and gave me some nice chocolates. plus, for my birthday, he's getting me an ipod!!!be excited for me ( Read more... )

this is looking to be a very very good summer. i'm not even kiding. i think this will be by far the best summer of my life as of yet. i mean last year was really good, but this year should be even better. this sunday, i fly off to georgetown and shall have some nerdy fun there. and when i come back, i am off to camp!!! and perry and lee are doing ( Read more... )

i'm packing my stuff right now. for sunday that is. i'm quite excited. a summer away from home. god willing. i swear though, i've never packed this much in my life. and i overpack too. so you can imagine. you can also prolly imagine my surprise at finding that lots of my clothes are mysteriously and inexplicably missing. so totally not good. i ( Read more... )

i am quite confused at the moment and i dont much like this state of being. i have no idea what's going on!!! gohs, i really wish someone'd tell me.

it's really the best being able to call up a really good friend and talk to them about anything. about any issues. just a nice long heartfelt talk. i've missed that. and i'd honestly forgotten what that felt like until i did it again today. it's relief and comfort. i do love my best friend. she's a star. and it's so great to know that you've got ( Read more... )

because people can't be mature and take things as they come. as in because people feel the need to cheat. it only screws everyone over. but no biggie. gosh!!!! i swear!

but otherwise, pretty good day. overcast though. dont like that kinda weather.