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"Where do you see yourself a few more years down the road...with me?"
When I look back on the effort it took to get you, it wasn't much. I just had to be myself and it was enough for you. In the beginning, I had no intentions of starting anything with you. You were like my brother and I enjoyed spending time with you. You kept coming around and I kept asking myself, "what the hell does he want????" But then my ( Read more... ) -
Waiting...As Usual
Things are moving along but at the slowest rate there possibly is. I sent my transcripts to BMCC and now I'm just waiting to hear from them. It seems like an eternity, almost like something wants to keep me in Milford. I went apartment hunting yesterday and found a potential place. It's pretty cute and it's in Manhattan. $590 a month. pretty sweet ( Read more... ) -
Let Go To Grow
Talking to Lois did something to me that let me relax about certain things. I let him go and that was the best gift that I could ever give him. She told me that if it's there, then I have absolutely nothing to worry about. If it's not there, then I know that I looked at the worst case scenario and I move on with my life and go along singin' my song ( Read more... ) -
8 Days For Him, 8 Days For Me
Next Wednesday I'm gonna stay in New York for four days. I'm staying with a friend of mine that I met not too too long ago. She's a sweetheart, her name's Crystal and I met her through John who was doing a show with her in '05. I have to look at the train schedule so I can know when the trains leave. I'll be taking the train by myself for the first ( Read more... ) -
Leave Me Alone
There's absolutely no need to be worried about me. No need what so ever. I'm going to be fine, I AM fine because if I wasn't you'd know or I'd tell you. Stop telling me that I need to slow down the visits, stop telling me that I need to distance myself so that it's easier on me when the time comes, stop worrying that I'm gonna go into a deep ( Read more... ) -
Nothing Unusual, Nothing Strange...Just A Little Older That's All
I'm still here. I'm still looking at the same faces, the same places, the same shit just always on a different day. I don't know if I should scream to see if the sky will split, or run to see where it'll take me. Neither option is gonna lead me to happiness. I'm happy in a way but I'm only seeing it in black and white. This past summer, it was ( Read more... ) -
I Want Milford To Burn To The Ground (Save The Good People)
I walked around Milford all day and now I'd like nothing more than to see it burn (saving all the ones dear to me of course). I went and took my permit test today also. I PASSED! WOOP! It was a long line though sheesh. There was this little boy who kept running around and terrorizing everything and everyone in the DMV. I wanted to snap his little ( Read more... ) -
What A Long Day...
John stayed over last night. This morning I woke up at about 7:45 and got ready because I went to apply at Soup Creations. I think I've got a pretty good shot. I left John sleeping because he was really tired the night before, so I came back a half hour later and saw him still sleeping. I got cozy and it wasn't long before I was out too. Then we ( Read more... ) -
In The End, I Like It The Best When I'm With You
I can't remember being this happy. Wake up happy, go to sleep happy...a never ending cycle of happiness. It's the best thing that's ever happened to me and my weird, insane, non-understandable life. It's the only thing I can really grasp and fathom. It makes me feel like a new person everytime.