Early in November my beloved cat Marley wasnt doing to well.  I found blood in the litter box and he was frequently going out into the kitchen and then coming back onto my bed.  It was early in the morning when I saw all the blood in the litter box.  My husband was still asleep and the only person I knew who would be up so early was my mother in ( Read more... )

My husband has bad ciculation for being only 32, and because of that sometimes sex goes unfinished because he cant stay hard.  As a woman this frustrates me because in my 30s I am more attracted to him then ever.  Ive never been so turned on in my life.  Ive never had sex so good.  My cunt is always throbbing whenever I think of him, of past sexual ( Read more... )

Throwing a take and bake pizza into the oven and rushing into the bedroom to fuck until its done <3 

I wanted to write while the moment is still fresh.  A little after 3am I came back into the room from using the bathroom and crawled back into me bed to read a bit more before falling asleep.  My husband had gone to bed an hour before and I kind of a little bit mockingly asked him when we would be able to have sex since its been a month or so.  He ( Read more... )

September 17, 2015 marked my 7 year anniversary with a Jim.  Seven years ago, he picked me up at the Chicago bus station.  Seven years ago we shared our first kiss.  Seven years ago we were intimate for the first time.  I can remember making love with him for the first time.  Our first time seeing one anothers body, touching one anothers skin, ( Read more... )

Thats actually me (in the pink) from about 5 years ago and the other picture of me standing outside was taken last week.  Probably a good 60+lb difference.  Also I will dump some photos here from Saturday in my two piece sunnin myself on my inlaws deck.  Just because these pictures remind me how on Saturday I felt extremely beautiful.

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I dont give up on people so easily.  I dont walk threaten to walk away when the going gets tough.  Yet the one person, who is suppose to love me unconditionally, is the very first person to walk away from me.  The first one to call it quits at the drop of a hat.  I hate feeling like everything I do is not good enough.

Im sinking.  More and more each day.  Right into that dark pit of depression and despair.  Ive felt it coming, but I foolishly thought that a few days of R&R would help shake it off, like it has before when its hit a few times in the past several years.  Nope.  Its got its claws dug in this time and it plans on staying for awhile.  Ive read a lot ( Read more... )

Lately Ive been reading a lot of stories about abuse.  In stories Ive been reding, Facebook posts, and peoples LJ posts.  It brings back memories of my sordid childhood and a nasty step father who was very keen on punishing me physically and for no reason.

The first time I ever met him I was about 8-9 years old.  My mother was having trouble making ( Read more... )

Achievement Unlocked: Got stoned and ordered Chinese. This has made for a better day indeed. I decided on mary jane instead of my Suboxone today. If I take my sub and smoke at the same time, it always feels as if the weed blocks my sub from working. How weird is that?

Also my shower is done for the day and I called in a refill on my birth control. ( Read more... )