The Musician has become a regular, and I have been informed he's more of a "one night stand" type of guy. I hope this doesn't mean anything, but he got a bit weird the other night when I left afterwards. Then he tried to kiss me goodbye. I was kind of excited that he was doing those things, but at the same time I didn't want him to - I don't ( Read more... )

So The Musician and I finally had sex. I wasn't interested him in the, "I like you," way until after the second time we had sex. Specifically the moment he started cuddling with me. I just felt like I could melt into him and stay there peacefully. (Afterall, the sex during round 2 was pretty amazing. No lie. Round 1? Not so much. Just ( Read more... )

Started on Lithium Friday night. Today I'm so sick. Maybe it's the medicine? I have no idea ( Read more... )

Went to a party this weekend. Met this great guy, spent most of my night sober (because I found out last week my liver is starting to fail so I didn't drink enough to get drunk or nearly tipsy, just water in between drinks) talking to him. He was great, teased me about my water, I was honest about my liver, he apologized, and filled my cup with ( Read more... )

I'm back, for now ( Read more... )

Austin and I are official. He's pretty sweet. We celebrated my birthday this month, and he got me perfect presents. He's a guy who really listens and cares ( Read more... )

Speaker interference as my cell phone rings ( Read more... )

Hey, Austin, don't fucking tell me you want to hang out, then get here & say you're really tired & know I'm stressed & sick and say you want to go home to sleep right after dinner, just to call me at 11:37 PM on your ride home to tell me about hanging out with your friends and how you wished you stayed up here. Because, really? I don't like liars ( Read more... )

Austin texted me to say good morning & let me know he missed me.

I haven't really missed Eric since last week sometime.

I think I'm getting better at getting over him. And I think I'm getting closer to letting boys in.

Although, not much closer to that, but still closer than I was a few weeks ago.

Progress comes in small steps.

Austin and I went to a frat party last night. Oh my. He's old enough to buy his own drinks, I'm not, and this place was just handing out free (but horribly shitty) beer. Hey, what else could you expect from a frat party that's free to get in & free to drink ( Read more... )