I'm really jealous of how a lot of my friends are really close with their families ( Read more... )

09.06.07
The scars on my legs from the time I grew
Grow brighter in the summer.
The purple American Apparel hoodie
Is distinct in crowds of strangers.
You're always there, the scars still stare.
It's not you I see, but shining eyes;
A perfect mix of green and gold.
My own green tea to drink in gulps.

I'd like another pot, please.

So last week at yearbook the editor flipped out on my because I asked for more direction. She just said, "Get this done," so I got it done. And then she got mad because I didn't know how to "properly interact" with that specific office, and she would have just, "done it herself." Well, sorry, but when someone is sitting on a computer & looking at ( Read more... )

Eric went and got a girlfriend. I know her, too. He almost dated her before we got together two years ago. I can't believe how much that hurt to find out ( Read more... )

I think I saw some posts by Eric on craigslist ( Read more... )

All I've eaten today is:

-fruit cup
-chocolate soy milk
-100 cal pack of lorna dunes
-salad
-apple
-water
-nuts (unsalted) & raisins

Just when I think I'm officially over Eric, thoughts of him come racing back ( Read more... )

Sometimes I feel like I'd be the "real me" if I took up smoking, developed an eating disorder, and became an alcoholic.

For some reason I think that lifestyle seems so glamorous and fun, but yet I recognize it as destructive.

What the hell is wrong with my thoughts?

I really kind of want Austin to just come out of whatever he's doing and sweep me off my feet and make me feel like a total princess, but at the same time I'm terrified that he'll actually fall for me and then I'll hurt him because I know I'm not ready for a real relationship just yet ( Read more... )

I stayed at Austin's house last night. We fell asleep cuddling, then had sex, ate some cereal, and then cuddled some more.

This whole situation is really awesome.