day 53.

[switching_on]

Day 42
Your Name: roxas tyler hart.
Suicidal Ideation: 7/10
Homicidal Ideation: 0/10
Amount of Sleep Last Night: 5 hours
Any Lucid or Vivid Dreams? Explain: lucid dreams, yeah. i'm learning how to do that. anything to give me something to do.
Moods Experienced Today: apathy.
Mood Triggers: nothing.
Significant Thoughts of the Day: ...it's been a month

Comments

[bowlcutsrule]

Losing control is a rather dangerous and foolish thing, but very entertaining to the onlookers who can appreciate such a thing.

[switching_on]

i used to do it all the time. it was theraputic i guess.

why? you one of those basketcase serial killer types like me?

[bowlcutsrule]

Someone very close to me has the same sort of problem.

Serial killer like you? Well, one of my hobbies back home was animal control.

[switching_on]

i've... i've hurt a lot of people. ot so much killing, just... watching people suffer. not because i like it or i'm a sick sadist, i just can't control my temper.

very close to you... a girlfriend?

[dontfearshadows]

If you were missing half your brain you'd be a vegetable, probably.

[switching_on]

yeah. a lot easier that way.

[dontfearshadows]

It'd be stupid that way. You'd just sit around drooling.

[switching_on]

i don't know but it's killing me.

[incognoscible]

Roxas, are... are you a-alright?

[switching_on]

yes. and that's the problem.

[incognoscible]

W-why would being okay be a p-problem? Is it that y-you're not used to it?

[switching_on]

...

something like that, yeah,