What happened you would like to know? I have just lost the love of my life, and my best friend.

The heavy onset of depression once again controls my life. Or, the life that may no longer be.

And I mean that. Who else could make such a brialliant decision as to the one he made? Who else can relieve my pain when I feel like there is nothing that I can do? Who else can find a rational solution. JOEL YOU ARE GOD TODAY.... AND I WORSHIP YOU !

Bri

So, Who wants to come to my wedding? :)

Oh, and yea. I ran a 6:35 minute mile. Almost shit my pants.

To everyone who is with the person they love right now.
Heather and Joel
Emilie and Bill
Mom and Dad
Arielle and Sal
Amanda and Mike
Becki and Zach
Brianna and.... Yea. I'm not bitter though.

i got your little card.....very cute, thank you!!
i miss you so much, i cant wait to have you back in my life like we were
before

Heather, you were right. Everything IS working itself out.

B

OK, so things....kammy better. lil bit. getting there. but i just got some teeths pulled and my mouth hurts like a bitch. damn. i knew i shouldnta done that. anywho. miss yalls. love yalls. you my peeps. haha had to say that. have fun loathing in this place we call the world....i dont call it that....i just call it a big thing that spins real fast ( Read more... )

I just dont know how much longer I can hold on...They say I am so strong...but if they really knew...they would know that I am weaker than the weakest of the weak, and I Just cant do this anymore...Life. I dont know if there is a word strong enough to describe my pain...depressed is weak.

Steve came over last night. I love him so much. Only a month until I go home. I cant wait to see my family. Specially my sister. I am not in the mood...I love you Steve.

I am....Completely, utterly, lifelessly, emotionally, spiritually, casually, angrily, happily, totally, engulfed with any and everything that has to do with Steve, and I am so in love with him...I cannot describe my feelings for this man. But I know that anytime I am near him, my everything becomes better, and I am happy, and the moment the door ( Read more... )