Only a week and 5 more days until I can maybe get some meat on my bones. I have lost a total of, 20 pounds in 2 weeks, and I have been able to keep it from going any further from that. So, in other words, I am just getting pissed off now. Annoyed. Crazy. Careless. Fuck it, you know? Fuck it all. I get to go home at the end of may. Anf watch, I bet ( Read more... )

You know its bad when you think of doing menacing things to yourself everyday, multiple times a day. Everyday something new comes to mind like, should I pull out that knife I have in my closet, or shall I singe myself with the iron on "accident" while ironing my uniform? Or am I going to fall down a set of stairs on accident because I wasnt paying ( Read more... )

Disorder Rating Information
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: High
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Very High
Histrionic: Low
Narcissistic: Moderate
Avoidant: Very High
Dependent: Very High
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

Your views are most similar to those of Christianity. Do more research on Christianity and possibly consider being baptized and accepting Jesus, if you aren't already Christian. Christianity is the second of the Abrahamic faiths; it follows Judaism and is followed by Islam. It differs in its belief of Jesus, as not a prophet nor historical figure, ( Read more... )

I love you Steve...

You scored as Pisces ( Read more... )

Ah, well. Should i be scared that I am anorexic or something? Cuz, Well, the not eating thing and getting sick when i see food and yadda? No, I am not but still...I have lost 13 pounds in the past week and a half...i dont really have it to lose. Whatever. I dont care. I guess I will die if i am meant to. I sat in my room, literally, all day long. ( Read more... )

Ah, I can honestly inform you how wonderful things are NOT going. The joys of sitting a day that is beautiful out in your room and seeing nothing but maybe a movie and tasting a bit of pepperoni and the sweet smell of tilex. Ode to the joys of having the most wonderful man alive by your side yet not even near you at all or even the sound of his ( Read more... )

Something inside me just came out and said "Tell him what you have been thinking." Not that i havent been telling him, but this time, i had to get everything out. The brink of insanity began to lean towards the more insane side. So tonight, things happend, words were said, And I told him that I was no longer going to beat myself to death begging ( Read more... )

I told Steve that the only way he could know how much he has been hurting me lately was if he let me cut a hole in his stomach, and take a whisk and beat the shit out of his insides until they were like much, and stick them in his bowel so that he could shit them out. Sounds gross, but its what he has been doing to me. I think its only fair that I ( Read more... )