I am at a standstill and I do not want your sympathy or advice. I want answers.

I woke up yesterday in a place that I told myself I would never return to. I don't know why I do the things I do. I wasn't even at all that drunk. I brought in 2009 in a way much different than I hoped. I was down the street from his house with a friend during NYE, but I had no way of seeing him. I called him, just minutes into 2009, still half in ( Read more... )

I can't believe it. I can't wait to start 2009 the right way.

my own perfection
remember the smoke and sounds
please, show me the way

I believe it to be early evening. Ariana and I are peering down and out my dorm window. Am I drunk? Maybe. There are some young men on the balcony trying to make their way to the fourth floor by climbing up the walls. On the ground, there are more young men sitting in lawn chairs. Of these young men, there are three familiar. Is it He is his two ( Read more... )

beautiful bald spot
conventional square-framed glass
to be near to you

You fucking slut.

Today I learned that I used to be really DUMB.

And I still am.

Today I learned that karma is a bitch.

i have no idea what i want to do with my life.